Confessions about 'Bu'

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I have been depressed for years because I have had a real love, depression will happen without love in your life.

I have been depressed for years because I have had a real love, depression will happen without love ...

Pride, Abuse

they treat me like I am rich and I am poor. we are a poor family, we have always been poor. they treat us like "why can't you afford this or that" because we have never been rich, we were not allowed to marry young and have education and careers etc we have never had jobs that paid well, we have never won the lotto or anything actually unlike other relatives.

they treat me like I am rich and I am poor. we are a poor family, we have always been poor. they tre...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I hate this life!

Abuse, Hate

I paid out a wack of money on holiday package and now I am wondering if we will ever use it. we always talk about travel or doing things or fixing things in the house but it always takes 20 years to be none. we talk about improving my life and health and finding a husband but it never happens. we talk about jobs and do shit courses and get nowhere so why would it ever change? as if we could be normal? as if we could go on a holiday or fix anything or look beautiful or get married and have a child like normal people. what a waste of money my university and college education and the furniture and the holiday package has been like the car. everything I do is a waste of time and money. it never works out ! why would it now when it never has?!

I paid out a wack of money on holiday package and now I am wondering if we will ever use it. we alwa...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my dads side of the family are so heavy handed and reckless with furniture and electrical goods and people around them. they ruin quality things with moody anger and heavy pushing and pulling at switches and flopping down heavy on furniture its disrespectful.

my dads side of the family are so heavy handed and reckless with furniture and electrical goods and ...

Abuse

I can't stand the idea of halloween coming. I wish I could go away to a resort or stay in a hotel but I want to save for a world cruise so I can't... I just hope my neighbors don't upset me again. I just get so sad and think of my cat who died, and trying to keep my heart rate calm. i have had a headache all day.

I can't stand the idea of halloween coming. I wish I could go away to a resort or stay in a hotel bu...

Abuse, Hate

incest is in a lot of families now I see girls asking for help to get them to have sex with close relatives and marry them and I think they are stupid wanting a parent or close relative for that. the men can only blame themselves and the women who allow it, you can't sue a erotic magazine writer or underwear ad or sex worker at the mall for you getting a hard on about incest and then blame it all on them. I tell girls to go marry a male model, hell I want to! I would marry a lot of men over my close relatives. I think its sick. I would rather a cute actor or model or some hot professional or cute teacher or boss play the part - i mean heaps of couples do play role to spice it up but there is a point to say - if you can't enjoy sex without bells and whisles and fireworks then maybe you need help, whatever happened to good old fashioned romance and courtship and real love, men should be schooled in courtshiping women to woe a woman is a pretty big thing these days. but first you should find out if there is at least mutual attraction and some compatibility and practicableness of the relationship then make a way for the two to be introduced without bullshit. a womans coming out time or debutant was a big thing in society once. she was schooled in social graces by aunts and grandparents and how to conduct herself gracefully, all people do today is want to teach women to act like pigs and male like and no wonder people are so confused, a lot of people don't know what to think anymore run with the heard or go it alone? hard choice.

incest is in a lot of families now I see girls asking for help to get them to have sex with close re...

Pride, Abuse

can't stand yasbin.

Abuse

this guys attitude was which ever girl gets the degree first and loses weight and gets a job first will win me, so fight hard!, what a load of bullshit!

this guys attitude was which ever girl gets the degree first and loses weight and gets a job first w...

Abuse, Hate

like after all these years- what on this earth would make you think I would need a specialist or therapist who was actually qualified and skilled? or could actually save a life if I was really sick with all you quacks at the hospital and gp practice !" sarcasm

like after all these years- what on this earth would make you think I would need a specialist or the...

Abuse

so when joyce said things to me like looking to be rescued I read that to mean- I can't ever show a weakness, vulnerability or need, I have to suffer the pain out so I did, I wouldn't take pain killers doctors offered me sometimes to feel powerful and above them like "as if I need your shit! you weak link in the chain!" as if I need morphine, I stood up and fought against the heart attack. I had to several weeks and months and years no one knows but me!

so when joyce said things to me like looking to be rescued I read that to mean- I can't ever show a ...

Abuse

i dump on everybody!

Abuse, Hate

crushed !

Abuse

now I know what joyce is thinking! I am supposed to say "oh I am glad I saw the light and got out of this state or country" and her other rubbish she expected me to do to make her feel good about herself trying to push her life on to me like that shirley leso hugs some convent nun game she was playing.

now I know what joyce is thinking! I am supposed to say "oh I am glad I saw the light and got out of...

Abuse, Hate

i notice joyce trying to copy a lot of people like her husbands, her daughter, her mother her father, all of her clients literally she must take on all their personalities and issues and make out she has phobia when she really had a server mental illness in her mulitple personality. i never knew each week which joyce I would meet at the door and it was like I was therapying her listening to her problems she rarely came up with much to help me. and then I noticed her copying other clients. it began to worry me that this was not a sound mind. this was causing me a big problem with her poor advice and different personality you would meet each week. then a psychologist at university said to me, if she has not let you talk about what you need to and she has not helped you in that time get out of there. I said , yeh I feel like she is a fraud and robing me.

i notice joyce trying to copy a lot of people like her husbands, her daughter, her mother her father...

Abuse, Hate

I deliberately tell people what I think now and insult people and love being rude to some people its been hard but my counsellor says always "good on you for standing up for yourself and not letting people dominate and walk over you, tell them what you think and walk away prouder then they probably feel if they are so meanly money scamming minded"

I deliberately tell people what I think now and insult people and love being rude to some people its...

Abuse

i had an nightmere felt like a gollywog tried to attack me called wayne- be-boring when I was 16 he was always going on about wanting to have sex with a woman on a horse, which I as a virgin couldn't accomodate to so I left him and met other attacking idiots who would be drunk and creepy and grope at my ass or talk shit at me at college asking too do stupid things I just ignored that pig behavior from ceepy old dudes on bombs of cars and attack me pushing me against walls to fuck me standing up if they could stand up drunk or sober, so when he couldn't manage it he went and fucked alliah and rick instead, rubbin his mates balls in nightclubs for us all to watch was his thing of exhibition and more.

i had an nightmere felt like a gollywog tried to attack me called wayne- be-boring when I was 16 he ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

can't see egan.

Abuse

pissoff slut bully fat bitch n rich shits fuck off fast forward or I will sue you for stalking and discrimination and abuse. it is not funny to make fun of a family with abused kids. wake up and get out of here devil.

pissoff slut bully fat bitch n rich shits fuck off fast forward or I will sue you for stalking and d...

Lie, Abuse

no one asked you to be part of the game too many joined in and went too bullying, ok. it was never even funny.

no one asked you to be part of the game too many joined in and went too bullying, ok. it was never e...

Abuse