Confessions about 'Murder'

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Murder

I Don't Want to Go There is a concert tonight at my home school (I go to a different school because I wanted the free college senior year), but my parents said that I can't go. I have horse riding lessons every Thursday, despite being scared of horses. During my second lesson, I was nearly bucked off and now every time a horse makes a movement similar in any way to that horse before it tried to buck me off, I get even more scared then I already was/am. I can't get out of it because they already hired the person to give me lessons so they'll have to pay no matter what, but I really don't want to go. I'd rather see my friends and not have the s*** scared out of me for a half hour.

I Don't Want to Go There is a concert tonight at my home school (I go to a different school because...

Pride, Murder

what really offended me with this piece of shit here when it was hanging around, said "tears aren't enough to prove your worthy of anyones love you gotta near die" that really finished me of human reason where was this guys moral plane? because not a lot of other people I have met have thought like that and no man is worth that bullshit! you don't come here putting that shit around me ! because that aint love, to know death is not allowing someone to live in love or in god. yeh, I nearly died and I was just as good and great a person before as after and just as deserving. for a group of resentors to get together to take their hate out on me for something I didn't even do just shows the mental state of criminality and loss of reason in a person that I could never love after that.

what really offended me with this piece of shit here when it was hanging around, said "tears aren't ...

Pride, Murder, Love, Abuse, Hate

I found myself in very similar situation and I got my brains stomped on. Be VERY careful here oh you're going to get out. I know you can't wait to find better help and be gone and I would want to, maybe backing off a bit would help everyone when you leave leave him a nasty letter. Posted 9 hours ago

I found myself in very similar situation and I got my brains stomped on. Be VERY careful here oh you...

Murder

The more I feel loved, the more I hate myself I realize all my coworkers love me more than my own family. My boss tells me all the time that I work too hard knowing that I barely eat or sleep. Usually I work straight through my breaks. Lately he's forced me to actually take a break. A few times he's made me food or bought some for me and told me to eat it. Also I've run into him at the gym and he's seen me running my heart out. Any time this happens he always comes over and tells me to calm down and relax a bit because I don't need to be doing all this. Of course I turn the treadmill back on as soon as he walks away. It's just so weird hearing this vs. my parents who always call me fat and lazy. Then there's this guy there I work with who does the same. Any time a guest is rude to me he'll always defend me. For example one day my mom was there and called me fat. He didn't know it was my mom at the time (they hadn't met yet) and he put his hand on my stomach and said "Excuse me, ma'am, were you talking to her or the baby?". He knows about my family situation and I can tell him anything. Every time we work together he says he'll drive me home. Even last night when I was there just to see a manager who works once a month he tried convincing me to stay another four hours saying that I'd be better off there anyway and it's be more time away from my family. well, Listen lady..There is no replacement of Parents in this world. IT is totally normal for parents to call their kids whatever they like..after all they are your parents.. so whats the problem with that.. if they ay you fat & lazy ..so what ? why can't you see love behind those words ? every other man who care for you or love you ..doesn't ncessarily means he is a true honest guy. most of them just wants your compnay..may be for s** or lesser something.. You can never compare Parents love with anyother's .. they don't need in thing back from you in return. I just feel so guilty that I'm begining to love them more than my real family. Plus I also feel like I don't deserve them at all. think about it.! stupidI hate it. I'm female, and one of my good friends is also female. We're close. We decided to start dating, then broke it off. There's a pair like us in my year, both girls, both dated and both broke it off. My good friend is a wreck, and she knows it. She has a boyfriend, still has feelings for me, is in love with her hated ex, and kissed one of the girls in my year. That girl-in-my-year's ex/friend yelled at the girl-in-my-year. I feel like doing that, too.Lindsay I want to eat Lindsay too, Same here. With Lindsey Lohan, I'd even take your sloppy seconds. Or thirds, or wherever we are in the count now. Damn, she is sooooooo fine!!!!ROTTEN, baby!!

The more I feel loved, the more I hate myself I realize all my coworkers love me more than my own f...

Murder, Love

Good child. I've begun to really resent my position as the "favorite" of my aunt's nephews and nieces. She has no kids, and my mom isn't really in the picture, so we've become surrogates for each other. It's great, but now things are changing. I hate having to put on this fake act of being an overachieving, well-mannered girl. I want to make mistakes, fall in love, etc. But I can't. Anything I do could be used against me and she'll label me as another "disappointment." What's worse is that some of my cousins and siblings have begun to turn against me because of it. I haven't talked to my oldest brother in over a year (he used to be her favorite before they got into a big fight), and he hasn't responded to my attempts to get back in touch. My other cousins don't talk to me as much anymore either. I really wish I could just go back to the old days where were all one big family and it didn't matter who was the "golden child."

Good child. I've begun to really resent my position as the "favorite" of my aunt's nephews and niec...

Murder

I think I'm bipolar/crazy. Right now, I'm just listening to music thinking about life, love, etc. I don't know why. I am 16, I've had a relationship with a 28 year old man. I know he's a really nice guy, I just know it. He's just everything I wanted and when he ended it with me I was too much in shock to even feel the hurt. I don't know why I'm so attached to someone who is halfway past their life, while I'm barely starting mine. He's still there for me if I would need him. If I need someone to talk to, if I need to feel some comfort(from a friend). Maybe when I'm older he'd give me another try. I just don't want to wait that long. I've been through h* last week. I've almost gotten hospitalized, I got dumped, and I got hurt from someone I'd called my bestfriend since I was 12. This all happened in one week. There are times where I just feel like nothing in this world matters. I just want to die. I've committed suicide before, I just never got the guts to actually do it. I spent my whole life trying to make my mother proud. I would bring home certificates, get recognized, bring home a trophy, bring home report cards with A's and wish she would tell me once that she's proud to have a daughter like me. Instead my whole life all I ever get are criticism. Sometimes I wonder why I try so hard for? It's not gonna make a difference. I wish I can just have that mother daughter relationship with her, but she doesn't understand me at all. She thinks she does, but she knows absolutely nothing about me. I grew up in a family of 5 without a father. I'm known as an overachiever according to some of my friends because I try too hard. I just want to be the first to be successful in my family. I want people around me to notice me. My friends mean everything to me, I'm not missing anything. But sometimes talking to my friends about problems aren't enough. I want to be able to talk about it to my FAMILY. There's absolutely nothing I haven't been through. Some people thinks their life is so difficult, they don't know what the real image behind it is. I've been through it. Maybe that's why I act too mature for my age. I've been told by many many people I act too old. I'm too serious sometimes. I'm sure I'm not the only one out there, but deep down inside I can't help but feel like that. I use to cut myself in middle school everytime something bad would happen because it makes the pain inside less painful. atm, I really hate my family. I don't want to see them. I'm a total outcast. I don't fit in. ANYWHERE not just here. that's just how I feel. My friends would tell me otherwise, but I can't help but think they're lying to me. And back with boys, I can't stand guys my age, nor immature guys. I always tend to go for older guys, maybe at least 2years older. I find them a lot more mature. But again boys ARE boys. Everytime something goes wrong, even though it's not true, my mind always thinks one direction. He's bored of me, he has someone else. most of the time I tend to think of things on the negative side. I've been heartbroken twice. I want to just give up on everything. I tend to give out really good advice when people are in trouble, but why can't I take my own advice. Like the saying goes, easier said than done. Every single time after a heartbreak, I feel like I need to put myself out there. I feel the NEED of having an affection. I know I don't need a guy in my life to be happy, but every now and then I want to feel the passion, affection, love. So I tend to throw myself out there not thinking, and then later discover that I really regret it. But then its too late already. I feel like a s* myself. Anything dirty. At times I feel like a w**. I'm only 16, I've had 8 partners already. I don't even believe in having s this early, especially with that much partners, but it's just me. I can't help it and I always do it without thinking. Then I feel like a total hypocrite. Drama in school isn't enough, but drama at home also. then everytime something bad happens, I go out till 3,4 in the morning coming home wasted. I don't want to do this stuff, but it makes me feel better. I just feel the need for it. I don't know... I tell my friends everything, but I don't tell them all this stuff because I'm afraid of what they would think of me. I mean people say they don't care what others think, but it's just all bullshit. People DO care. Some just show it more than others, it's just a human trait you don't get away from. I just think I'm a really lonely, sad girl. I'm PATHETIC.... I don't know...

I think I'm bipolar/crazy. Right now, I'm just listening to music thinking about life, love, etc. I...

Murder

Mid-40s, And she's 20 I've made no secret of admitting working on, and, having s with, some of the young girls who work at the sports bar I frequent. Most are, to be honest..Once and done, however, there have been a few repeat sexual experiences. A new girl started a few weeks ago. Very pretty blonde, deep blue eyes, fit body, hair down her back. Sweet smile, too. She gets tons of looks and attention from guys her own age and older. Myself included. So, striking up conversations with and getting to know her, I reeled her in. Like many young women that age anymore, she had no problem with the age difference; In fact, told me she finds it hot that she could generate interest from men twice her age. She is 20, but does look at least mid-20s. Just has that something about her. I've been with her twice already, she's amazing in bed, and we physically do well together (that's not bragging..it's the truth..very sexually compatible). Problem is this: I'm starting to want her more and more, not just sexually. Will watch her at work if I'm there, see some guy talk to her, and think..Get away from her, she's mine.. I know it's wrong, and, speaking to people is part of her job, and...She's 20. But, sometimes I can't help it. I'm guessing or hoping this will pass, and, we'll be able to just have s once in a while, but right now..I'm almost obsessed with her. Age difference be damned.

Mid-40s, And she's 20 I've made no secret of admitting working on, and, having s** with, some of th...

Adultery, Murder

My fault Sure glad to know that you place the blame for all of this on me. Heavens knows you aren’t to blame for anything ever. Nothing is ever your fault, things happen TO you, not because of anything you ever do. You, in fact, don’t have any real responsibility, do you. What an amazing liberated life you lead. I really am a shitty person for enabling you, aren’t I.

My fault Sure glad to know that you place the blame for all of this on me. Heavens knows you aren’...

Murder, Love

"I don't care about what others think of me" Y'know, I want to help people on this website when I can, but when people say this line it just drives me insane. It's like really? You don't care? Then why the hell did you just write a 200-page novel complaining about what they said? Beginning of the post: "People called me names everywhere I go, but fuck the haters" Later in the post: "Anyway I think I'm suicidal and I need help, can someone give me advice?" Good fucking lord, people calling you names adds to your depression. Can't you just fucking see that? No one can truly "block out the haters", they're just frail people pretending to have self-confidence. Sounds mean, I know. It is, but it's the truth. It's in our nature to be liked among others, because in a biological perspective, our primitive selves were better off surviving the troubles of nature with other people. Thus, people grew to like other people. Simple as that. Now the next time you say, "I don't care about what others think of me," just know you sound like a petty bitch. Be more productive in your words if you want help.

"I don't care about what others think of me" Y'know, I want to help people on this website when I ...

Murder

I minded my own business so much that I stopped talking to people or going out and asking others into sharing time with me, you never know if you ask a question if its the wrong one. right! so you go mind your own business by talking and looking at no one! but very isolating and lonely and never wanted to so alone. thanks for the feeling of confusing. how about you mind your own business more too! don't you ever try to kill me ever again I have been dobbing on everyone literally everyone who has ever done a minor wrong thing to me even parents and nephew and neice and anyone I can get my hands on. look at the hate you have created in me for all of you and all the contempt I have for you all. and the power I ought to have one day over you all who abused me. I hate so many people. niggas, police, doctors, gym wankers, entertainment skanks, how about you go mind your dirty dirty dirty business mary p and her shit kids and shit dutch scum! go myob your faces off! perminantly !!!!!!!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hT_nvWreIhg&list=PLqHzybV3aEvB-IedYnOxI07afrqkvtHRC never come near me without looking for a fight you will get. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znB8OlFgCSM you stop abusing me katy robo dog and dirty scum doctors !!! i am behind you copying you and catching up behind you watching you from behind seeing all your mistakes and secrets.

I minded my own business so much that I stopped talking to people or going out and asking others int...

Murder, Abuse, Hate, Violence

Stories are Twisted and Turned My brother was murdered and he was a very good substitution for me while on planet Earth I wish him much life prosperity and Health in the Afterlife. And that while on Earth he didn't make all the right choices and accumulated bad Karma via his # Asc. I will do all I can to fight for him and restore him. I miss you dearly. RIP.. Yes, I can see all of the twisted and turned stories.. That are being fed by a false system. Not impressed…Annoyed Divine M102 M45 Hmnw Khemenu 8

Stories are Twisted and Turned My brother was murdered and he was a very good substitution for me ...

Murder

a few years back i was fooling around with my gay lover reinhold. we mixed a batch of concrete and i reclined on the table with my feet up on the wall. reinhold then placed a funnel in my rectum and poured in the mixture.

a few years back i was fooling around with my gay lover reinhold. we mixed a batch of concrete and i...

Murder, Lie, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Gay, Marriage, Sex

Being a white male in a Post colonial society I find it very difficult being a white male in this world not because people are assholes for me being white and male. I mean yes lots of people are I guess but I kind of accept that because I am an asshole to others if they are to me so I don't really care what they think. However, the main concern in my life is economic. I am studying my second degree and I live on unemployment benefits just to eat, I have no real life and I am 27. I try to be a nice guy, mind my own business, I don't wish any bad will on anyone but I struggle mainly with widespread attempts to remove jobs traditionally held by white males simply by their choice to participate say in the mining industry and replaced by women or minorities. Not this is concerning for me because it means well if you give those jobs to others what will I than do? I mean I am told go to University or get a trade that is what you should do in highschool but you do that and people are saying hey man you are a white male we don't want you we got to fill a quota, or you aren't experienced enough and you don't fit a quota so we can't waive that requirement so you are locked out from those jobs. So basically all young white men are being told if they don't have family connections they are royally fucked. I am living on unemployment benefits so I can study without it I would starve, if I try to get a job I might get one but the truth is it would probably be a job as a cleaner or something not remotely relevant to someone who has completed a degree. I mean what is the point in studying at University getting a postgraduate education if you end up working as a cleaner on minimum wage? I didn't pay 50K for my education 70 by the time I graduate at least just so I could work as a cleaner. When I finish my postgraduate degree I hopefully will get a good job but I am already 27 so its not easy living on such small amounts of money when I have been doing it my whole life, my parents were not wealthy is that my fault? the fact is there are people of quota backgrounds who are more privileged than me personally and rich people too all of which will either use connections for roles or minority status to lock out poor white men like myself who have been struggling to advance themselves all along while rich guys who actually have privilege are unaffected. Its amazing this is where modern Labor movements have come or even conservative movements lets be honest they are run by childless homos who basically suck the fat off the system with prize quota roles just to fill their own nest with glory at the expense of everybody else. What happened to living in a society of opportunity and allowing people the pursuit of once female interests.

Being a white male in a Post colonial society I find it very difficult being a white male in this w...

Murder, Blasphemy

My wife at home thinks I'm reconciling with her, while I'm still madly in love with my girlfriend who is visiting the old Randland. Wish I was with her and don't like the thought of going home. How much does a same-day flight to Paris cost?

My wife at home thinks I'm reconciling with her, while I'm still madly in love with my girlfriend wh...

Adultery, Murder, Marriage

I am a god at murdering video game citizens

Pride, Murder

My wife and I have been married 20 My wife and I have been married 20 years. I never dated another woman. I have never had s with any other woman (really). She had s with one other guy when she was seventeen and never saw him again. I regret not having had s** with at least one other woman in my life before we got married.

My wife and I have been married 20 My wife and I have been married 20 years. I never dated another ...

Murder

you are pathetic mary p niggar down! raped my cousins and set me up in 1977 you are pathetic and you are gonna get caught niggardown townsvile maryp https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZlI6vcqR3A

you are pathetic mary p niggar down! raped my cousins and set me up in 1977 you are pathetic and you...

Murder, Sex

Chuck e effen cheese Ugh me and my ex boyfriend took our son to chuck e cheese for his 6th birthday. His birthday was on a Saturday and he was coming from Georgia so the party had to start late in the day like around 4 430. Anyway the fucking kids in that place was so annoying. My son tapped his play pass on this basketball thing for kids (not the big ones) and this little girl maybe 4 or 5 came up and took over the game her mother was just like "yeah get it nae" OK I guess we wasn't playing here so my son just walked away. Then we decided to take a picture at the little picture booth two kids just stood beside us watching us take the picture... Very awkward. Kids was snatching tickets now mind you this is one of the "nicer" chuck e cheese's. When our pizza came to our table same little girl from the basketball game came and asked us for a slice. When we told her no her mother asked why not... It's our pizza bitch go buy your own tf. I will never go to another chuck e cheese on a Saturday again

Chuck e effen cheese Ugh me and my ex boyfriend took our son to chuck e cheese for his 6th birthday...

Murder, Sex

It was last year when i suddenly remembered you. Then i thought about you a lot. Its crazy , i never really knew anything about you or even your real name as monnapt b. I tried making a fake fb account to add you. Creepy, ikr. You will never know me, but its ok for me as long as youre alright and doing well with your life. I wish you all the best. Youre the first person i think about in the morning and right before i sleep. Youre one of my inspirations. Youre beautiful in your own way and cool too. Im hurt, cuz im shy to chat with you. I want to get to know you but im shy...at first it was just a crush but now, its love....youre far away, but i really want to see u personally. Like, there she is, the one im all crazy about, her lovely eyebrows and irresistable lips..a thai girl, god...its sad, that im just gonna be waiting outside the lines trying to reach out to you but it tears me apart cuz you dont see... monna bamrung

It was last year when i suddenly remembered you. Then i thought about you a lot. Its crazy , i never...

Murder