Confessions about 'General'

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i have bad heart days if I don't drink a lot of water in the morning. I eat a lot of pomegranate for blood thinning and also other reasons.

i have bad heart days if I don't drink a lot of water in the morning. I eat a lot of pomegranate for...

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I started coming in my daughters food when she was 4 and I still do and she's 16 today.

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i hate david's church at O

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Dazed&Confused I and my husband have an open relationship, meaning we can date others. This post is not about begging for a response, I just need to rant; so if you have some criticism of how I live my life, post it in a separate rant, not the comments, please. But if you've been in a similar situation and have some advice to give, it would be greatly appreciated! That being said… 5 years ago, my friends (a couple) introduced me to their friend. We immediately hit it off. He tried offering me his number a bunch of times, but I didn't have a phone, so I didn't take it, but he assured me he would text back if I messaged him from our mutual friend's phone. Realizing he can't just offer someone else's phone, he told our mutual friend to LET ME TALK TO HIM IF I WANTED TO…WHENEVER! And he shook him while saying so. Lots of other things transpired, but I am beautifully oblivious to the advances of others. I actually thought I annoyed him! At any rate, we didn't get together. I was in a bad place and I needed someone to believe in me. My friends, as a couple, told me they wanted to date me. He was shocked when I told him, but didn't give up. He continued his advances-a little harder, perhaps. Things went well for a time in our threesome, but we weren't all honest about our feelings and it inevitably fell apart. I left with the male of the couple and moved back into my parents' house. Two weeks later, my parent died and I got pregnant two months after that. We've been together (and relatively happy) ever since. Happily ever after? Not exactly. The guy I originally liked didn't go away. In fact, he never seemed to give up. At first, he would ignore any mention of my husband and change the subject. When he couldn't avoid it any longer, he became bitter and rude. But we were still best friends, as I can't shake his hold on my heart. We would get drunk and hold hands and stare at each others' faces and ignore everyone around us, sometimes for hours. Then we would walk all night and talk about every little thing. We got into a slap fight (that I WON) and he would lock us in his room for a few minutes and do strange things like push me in the closet and stand at the door or lay me on the bed, turn the light off, and lay next to me (I was so drunk as to not really be aware of what was happening). And he would be bitter when we left the room. This may sound strange, but if he whispers my name from 100 yards away, I can hear it. It's happened at least three times. I have a hundred stories like that (and we retell them all the time), but he's never made an official MOVE. He's never kissed me. Not after following me to bed and laying his arms over me. Not after pulling me to face him on a walk and caressing my face in the light of a streetlamp. Not after putting his face on mine and helping me fight the alcohol poisoning. Never. But there was always a MOMENT where it seemed he was going to, but didn't. My problem is this: now he has a girlfriend…and she couldn't be more like me if she tried (which she does). When she first met me, all was fine until her boyfriend and I started drinking. Then we fell into our usual pattern of being close and talking about our past, while He told her to go get him drinks and otherwise ignored her. (For comparison, he's never had me get him a drink, he always gets mine for me. Or gives me his and gets himself another.) But, as I said, we are shockingly alike. We have the same birthday, her middle name is my name (which is what he calls her), we have the same amount of cats and interest in kids (which are my two main traits), we like the same fandoms and the same kind of music. We have the same mannerisms and temperament. We even know the same amount of a foreign language! Her hair was almost the same color as mine and, immediately upon leaving my house, she dyed it to be the same. As I've stated, he doesn't treat her well. He must know being around her digs at me. (WHY date someone like me?! Why not just date me?!) But now he talks to me all day, every day and constantly wants me to hang out with them. But it makes me uncomfortable, so I decline. My question is, what the hell is he doing? Is he trying to make me jealous…of someone who is essentially myself? Is he trying to make me see myself in her shoes, because I've been doing that for years. He has to know I love him madly and he pulls at every heartstring I have, but now he's replacing me? I just feel so pointless. If there's others like me, WHY keep me around? Just let me wallow in self-pity by my lonesome. Don't torment me.

Dazed&Confused I and my husband have an open relationship, meaning we can date others. This post ...

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Sometimes pervert I’m 39 and not too attractive because of some birth defects. I’m a pretty decent guy in most situations. I feel bad about this confession sometimes. I like going out on the town for events…concerts, local festivals, art walks, poetry slams, or just to hang out at a bar for a drink. I usually go by myself. Sometimes when I’m bored, I will catcall girls or creepily hit on girls just to get a reaction and be rejected. Rejection kinda turns me on, hence why I have went to dance clubs to watch hunky men dance with hot girls that I can’t get. I’ve fantasized about going up a girl and telling her she has “nice jugs” or something just for a reaction. I also fantasize about doing this shirtless. I’d ask for brutal honesty about my looks, but that’s asking too much, I think. I sometimes take pictures of butts and boobs…even during the day. Especially when I’m caught or make a girl too uncomfortable, I feel really bad later. This isn’t a healthy cycle.

Sometimes pervert I’m 39 and not too attractive because of some birth defects. I’m a pretty decent...

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I wanted to fuck my sister

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some parts of life that are mine there is so much to write, my dreads and woes, my emotions currently, and much more! that is actually really sad that i have so many fucking things to write to the web. but hey, its what the site was made for. uh, OK…well, life is a bitch, i'll tell you that right now, it is. and i know this even though i am younger than sixteen. for Christ sake, i mean i caught on pretty quickly, but after losing the ability to see my mom at fucking eight years old i realized that life wasn't interested in helping me out. i hadn't decided onto thinking life was sort of bad till my baby brother was taken away from my family to live with his dads parents (his dad is in jail for heroin or something) . i can't see him till i am fucking eighteen, it has been, what, seven years since i have seen him? idk. and it has been nearly six years since my mom was being dragged to the cop car with blood slopping onto the concrete driveway. thanks cps for making my life worse. i really appreciate it. my mom had a few boyfriends in the past that were extremely abusive to her and i, i was going to my dads house in bruises and my dad didn't give a flying fuck. in fact, his gf, (ex now) threatened him and i so many times to take me out of his life and i honestly was in this horrifying environment where i was either hit or threatened, before i was in first grade my father finally broke up with her and she took all his cash. my dad refused to get back with my mom and made life worse by finding a slut at work and dating her, she had two kids. lets call them … David and Ava. Ava was two an David was five when we first met them. they were huge jerks and wanted me dead. my dads gf pretty much hates me and fights with me a lot and i am just tired. i often stay my grandma because she is very supportive of me and hates my dads gf. nut life still bites me in the ass and my dad hates me now too and i am really not happy of my options. and if i didn't know that there was a possibility of me being happy, than i would have been gone at twelve years old. but i hope things go right for me sometime,

some parts of life that are mine there is so much to write, my dreads and woes, my emotions curren...

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i'm cheating eating now at near midnight to do fasting test if i can get there.

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Manipulation as work One of my co-worker has been acting weird. Her face represents loath, jealousy, and enviousness. Ever since we've been working together her behavior has been telling me "she doesn't like you and doesn't like to see your face." I'm trying to make this better. In fact, every time she does something to make me feel inferior, I won't say a single word. I've been minding my own business and making progress at work. Just like I wanted. In order to prevent jealousy, I've been complimenting her and making her feel as equal as me. I don't think less of her. In fact, I never did. I'm still trying to make it better. I haven't given her benefit of a doubt about our professional relationship. She probably thinks I don't notice her behavior. There are so many people doing me wrong, but to prevent it from happening I've been keeping everything to myself and minding my own business. But am I right to avoid this situation without discussing it with my boss? I don't know. We both are new. In fact, she came after me. I'm trying to compromise. They say, you always have to compromise to stabilize any relationship whether it's personal or professional. However, she wants to take over everything at work. Doesn't like me around her. Her manipulative attitude used to affect my self-esteem, but I've been pretty confident with my work lately and her manipulation hasn't worked. I'm making very less mistakes, which is keeping her quite instead of fault finding. I'm not quitting my lovable job just to satisfy others. Especially for those who're doing me wrong.

Manipulation as work One of my co-worker has been acting weird. Her face represents loath, jealousy...

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Heads up, I'm a normal person. No, I don't sacrifice babies to the devil. No, I'm not insane. No, I don't feel disgusting. Yes, I have a crush on a teacher.

Heads up, I'm a normal person. No, I don't sacrifice babies to the devil. No, I'm not insane. No, I...

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Hormones getting the better of me I go to the local Baptist church gym because they have a free weight room that anyone can use. Now there's a hot girl there teaching aerobics but she's totally living the lie of the church. Just once I wish I could see a sign that she might wanna get a little naughty. She's fun to talk with but I can't tell if she really is Little Miss Innocent or if she's a really good actress. I think it might be worth risking getting kicked out of the gym, just to find out for sure...

Hormones getting the better of me I go to the local Baptist church gym because they have a free wei...

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no one would even come near the bong for over 4 months so yeh, that tells you people think its dirty and full of germs.

no one would even come near the bong for over 4 months so yeh, that tells you people think its dirty...

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I would make a more honest top then you ever will.

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looking for new doctors.

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Sometimes its good to just take a step back. Acknowledge that you are trying your best and be proud that you put in effort in that class. I, for one, had a really hard semester: I was at a 66% and suffered a lot. Try to forgive yourself because your mental health is WAY more important than some number. I did it and I don't even think twice about the points where my semester went wrong. just that I really tried and that is was matters most

Sometimes its good to just take a step back. Acknowledge that you are trying your best and be proud ...

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ISLAM IS WICKEDNESS PERSONIFIED!!!! I'm from a christian family in india. i converted to islam in 2005 because i thought it was THE TRUTH. i followed the rules because i believed the reeligion was truly from GOD. and now i'm a f atheist and it feels good to tell the world I HATE ISLAM because it is a f perverted religion and i hate the way women are treated. their rules are bullshit only wanting to stifle the female and keep her lower than men. i didn't know that that b muhammad raped women in front of their husbands and fathers and brothers and directed all his followers to do the same. HOW CAN I ALLOW SUCH A RELIGION A PLACE IN MY LIFE BEING A WOMAN MYSELF?????? I HAVE MANY NON MUSLIM FRIENDS AND IF ANY MAN, MUSLIM OR NOT TOUCHED MY BEST FREIND JUST COZ SHE BECAME PART OF 'WAR BOOTY' I'D F KILL HIM AND THEN CUT HIM TO PIECES OR SOMETHING EVEN WORSE IF I CAN THINK IT UP. EVERYBODY LISTEN UP ISLAM IS A PLAGUE UPON MANKIND. BUT I'M SCARED TO COME OUT AND SAY I'VE LEFT ISLAM BECAUSE MAYBE PEOPLE WILL TURN ON ME. I'VE TOLD NO ONE ABOUT THIS. SO I PRETEND TO LIVE A RELIGIOUS LIFE BUT I'M ACTUALLY LIVING IN FEAR OF PERSECUTION. FELT GOODDDDDDD!

ISLAM IS WICKEDNESS PERSONIFIED!!!! I'm from a christian family in india. i converted to islam in 2...

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Sorry F, We had a wonderful time together. We laughed, held hands, reminisced, drank together, and sang songs at the top of our lungs without giving a s*** who heard us. Making love to you is something that I’ll always hang on to, and regardless of my current engagement to another man, it will always be one of the best days of my life. And that’s why I’m apologizing. I may have hurt you. I will never ask you about it because I know you will never be honest with me about it. But in the event that I have, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I started something that I can never finish, and I left you hanging. I’m sorry you compromised your values to consummate a high school crush, and I’m sorry that you and I will ultimately never be together. I love my fiancee, contrary to the implications of my behavior. I’m sorry that I, in a sense, led you on and stoked a flame that will never burn fully. Even worse than all that, I’ve damaged myself. I now feel jealousy towards people who have someone who was never mine. Although I am, to a certain extent, glad we finally had a day together that was…wow, I still intend to spend the rest of my life with another man, faithfully. I’m sorry I cheated on him with you. I’m sorry to the both of you. Regretful love, -W

Sorry F, We had a wonderful time together. We laughed, held hands, reminisced, drank together, and ...

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I don't see a point anymore, gamer guy :(

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I wish i was beautiful and skinny. my weight is considered a joke. my friends all say that they wish they were as skinny as me, but i known you are lying. can't even sympathize correctly. I'm afraid of being judged... that they will see my flaws. they say flaws are good, but i tend to disagree. my being fat is a flaw. my cracked lips are a flaw. i, myself am a flaw of this earth. but what can an 11 year old do? that's not even the half of it.

I wish i was beautiful and skinny. my weight is considered a joke. my friends all say that they wish...

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Chris and Bruce Sitting here embarrassed with myself again but realising I can't stop myself with what is happening but I have promised I would tell you all. Chris rang me up on Wednesday told me to wear trousers blouse with ordinary undies and buy a dog collar to fit me this obviously was the first part of the blackmail and humility and to meet him at his small garage with Bruce. I will be honest that Thursday morning seemed to fly because next thing it was time for me to walk with Bruce the short walk across town to meet Chris. My heart was pounding by the time I got there and feeling that everybody I saw on the way knowing I am willingly going to let another man other than my husband watch me strip but also Chris watching me having s with a dog. He had the garage set out just like a rest room with sofa a couple of chairs with a coffee table complete with water and kettle even a small mattress. At first the conversation was just about normal sort of things leading me into a false sense of security but after about 5 min he reminded me about the blackmail and controlling I had agreed to when he caught me with Bruce telling me also he was looking forward to a repeat performance (he really knows how to get me embarrassed) He told me put on the collar myself I had bought and then strip so he could see me in the flesh and to get down on all fours just like Bruce and to crawl across to him so he could have a feel before I have to get ready for Bruce but by now Bruce was starting to get frisky because nowadays when we are alone at home he knows when I strip off he knows it is "playtime" although I have only let him have me three times but already he knows what is coming. Chris was made up watching meaning Bruce prancing about but adamantly saying not to let Bruce Mount but first for me to work on his D* which was really starting to stick out of his "sheath" all the time really getting worked up himself to the point of unzipping his trousers waving his rock hard D* at me saying something like he wants sorting out as well afterwards but at that particular moment my priority was Bruce because he was really licking deep in my F and although Chris was watching I was getting more and more worked up and I have got to admit right at that moment I could feel myself trembling with the organism which felt like a steam train hitting me when I started to actually C at this point I was completely out of control of my own feelings and Bruce was also getting out of control because all he wanted was to mount me and I should be ashamed of myself but I actually wanted to feel him inside me. I could feel him actually start to jump up with his front legs wrapping around my fat belly his D* starting as usual prodding against my bottom until he actually started to push inside I know it is very morally wrong but at that point all I wanted was Bruce inside me once he was "connected" as the last previous times the frantic humping started until I could feel him actually growing inside me until I was completely stretched this is when he stopped humping but also embarrassingly he actually like last time jumped off but staying "knotted" we were bottom to bottom and this is when Chris started wanking furiously over my head and face openly describing what me and Bruce looked like and holding onto my nipples describing how hard they were the next thing he actually started coming but Bruce was still "knotted" but I could feel him starting C and then fall out of my F** this is when yet again Chris took delight in watching Bruce's s dribbling down my legs but also saying I hadn't done as I was told meaning I had let Bruce have me before I had sorted Chris out but next time I better do as I'm told (h* I didn't think there would be a next time) but he was quick to remind me what had just happened and that I was his slave on a Thursday afternoon from now on and actually secretly I suppose I wasn't going to argue but found it a turn on but right at that moment I was still completely naked on all fours with s all over me off Bruce and Chris fortunately Chris had bought a bowl for some water which I boiled in the kettle to wash all the s of not being still naked Chris took delight in describing what I looked like and what had just happened and next time he wants to see Bruce take me face-to-face so as to speak Thursday finished off with me having to walk back to my house through the town with Bruce obviously reflecting what I had just done and agreed to carry on doing and yet again here I am a 30 year old chubby married woman being ordered by a much younger guy

Chris and Bruce Sitting here embarrassed with myself again but realising I can't stop myself with w...

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