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I a door mat. My entire life I have been bullied - by school peers, colleagues, friends and family. I do for everyone but no on does for me. I am bulimic for 35 years. Before which I had anorexia. I am so tired of not being in charge of my own destiny through guilt from others. I just want one day where I can choose to do what I like and finally begin to look after me.

I a door mat. My entire life I have been bullied - by school peers, colleagues, friends and family. ...

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I spent about 5 month on OkCupid with my real profile. A well written one, funny and clever,( with real pics of myself), I was pretty glad with it (I mean english is not my first language and it took some time...). I actually got a boyfriend of 3 years out of it. Those days are a bit difficult though so I reactivated it, just to take a look, talk to people (or also have guys say nice things about me I guess). I also created a fake one, almost empty with the picture of a beautiful smily girl, it's been there for a month. My real profile has a half the "likes" than the fake one (300/600, 1 month/4 month) That's really upsetting.

I spent about 5 month on OkCupid with my real profile. A well written one, funny and clever,( with r...

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I hate you stalker, I hate you bullies and I hate all of you. I don't want you getting in my life again.

I hate you stalker, I hate you bullies and I hate all of you. I don't want you getting in my life ag...

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interesting concepts but can't relate to all that love yourself rubbish and cry and the world will cry with you because they don't most people don't care how a fat girl feels. fatties are losers that is all the world tells us we are even when we lose weight and we just still are treated fat losers. no one is nice to anyone anymore. I don't even like people complimenting me and likely to tell them off and abuse them. I am likely to die before my mother so life has giving me nothing but hell and I am sick of being this nice person for nothing back but abuse. I don't have time "nice non-sense"

interesting concepts but can't relate to all that love yourself rubbish and cry and the world will c...

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I'm just afraid you might think that I am your evil twin said katy

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I need to get into your head said katy

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I always smile when I'm sad. I always laugh when I want to scream and cry. I always talk when I want to be silent. I always act like everything is okay when it's not. I always suck it up and stay strong when all I want to do is give up. I always help others out when I need help the most. I always take care of others instead of myself. I always tell others don't worry it will get better when I do the opposite myself. I always try to make people's days brighter and their thoughts positive while mine are opposite. I always tell people to love themselves and that they are beautiful when I don't believe it to be true about myself. I always tell people that I'm okay when in reality I need help, I need support, I need love, I need happiness. I need to stop and realize that it doesn't matter because I don't believe anyone cares even though I know they do. I always feel alone even though I have loved ones. I always feel depressed when I have so much to be happy about. I always hate myself for doing this on a daily basis. I always find myself in a pit of self loathing and being unable to get out. What am I to this world that I live in? If I feel I'm not worth it even though others do? Why can't I see the beauty that others see? Why can't I see the courage? The happiness? The passion? The hope and love that others see in me? Why do I do this to myself when I could be happier? Why can't I stop doing this to myself? Why can't the voices in my head just shut up and tell me something positive about me for once? Why can't I love myself?

I always smile when I'm sad. I always laugh when I want to scream and cry. I always talk when I want...

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he better not be around when I get to that office or there will be trouble.

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I heard that song "shut up and dance with me" I could never imagine saying that to a man or anyone. is there something wrong with me?

I heard that song "shut up and dance with me" I could never imagine saying that to a man or anyone. ...

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my sister won't let me buy her any birthday or xmas gifts and she never wants to anywhere I invite her to. she hates me so much.

my sister won't let me buy her any birthday or xmas gifts and she never wants to anywhere I invite h...

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I don't want anything to do with my brother and his wife and kids and they know why, because of their abuse, their lies and scamming and bitchiness. I can't stand their kids at all.

I don't want anything to do with my brother and his wife and kids and they know why, because of thei...

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want to hear back from sports meetings about job rotations too much paperwork and books and turn off equipment and clean down and tidy sometimes I don't get to bed til 12midnight. shit! I am so stressed ordering in and helping with fitness support to clients showing them around. I am so claustro-anxious@night!

want to hear back from sports meetings about job rotations too much paperwork and books and turn off...

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I work in a gym from 4am til 10pm but have long lunch breaks due to claustrophobia but I am losing clients and work time because more and more people want to exercise at my gym during their lunch break and now I am considering hiring extra staff to cover me and block out hours. I am just so exhaused and need more customers yes, and more reliable employees yes, and some time out to deal with my problems.

I work in a gym from 4am til 10pm but have long lunch breaks due to claustrophobia but I am losing c...

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I study from say 5am and take several small 5 minute breaks and some physcial exercise breaks as well but I feel guilty to just relax. I take the odd day off to go out or morning but usually those days I study more at night then to make up. its a viscious cycle really.

I study from say 5am and take several small 5 minute breaks and some physcial exercise breaks as wel...

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I am at college and I am 18 and I am so angry at my school for losing my assignment because now I have to do it all over again due to their dumb actions.

I am at college and I am 18 and I am so angry at my school for losing my assignment because now I ha...

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my sister is verbally and physically violent to me and I don't love her. the only reason I don't like people abusing her is she has always learnt it served her well to take it out on me like a lot of people have like katy and joyce and louise and others. I don't love these people anymore. its very librating to not love a lot of people. I don't love my brother. I never loved one guy I went out with ever! and it took me up until about when my grandfather died to realise this that no guy has lived up to the image of a man I wanted, the only ones who did I only knew them professionally as teachers or I was a patient or I worked in the office with them or I met them on a jobb situation like police. no man I have had personal time with has ever been romantic or loveable or even had finer qualities or as my grandmother would say "they wouldn't even make a mans bootlace let alone a man!"

my sister is verbally and physically violent to me and I don't love her. the only reason I don't lik...

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oats and apple and cinnamon, banana, biscuit, omlete and peppers, cheese and pickle gerkins, watermelon and ice-cream, cous cous basil cellery and tomato and cherry bocconcini cheese - feel like a pig, still craving gerkins and watercress and radish and alfalfa and cheese.

oats and apple and cinnamon, banana, biscuit, omlete and peppers, cheese and pickle gerkins, waterme...

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Confessions about 'General'

I hate you stalker, I hate you bullies and I hate all of you. I don't want you getting in my life again.

I'm just afraid you might think that I am your evil twin said katy

I need to get into your head said katy

he better not be around when I get to that office or there will be trouble.

I heard that song "shut up and dance with me" I could never imagine saying that to a man or anyone. is there something wrong with me?

my sister won't let me buy her any birthday or xmas gifts and she never wants to anywhere I invite her to. she hates me so much.

I don't want anything to do with my brother and his wife and kids and they know why, because of their abuse, their lies and scamming and bitchiness. I can't stand their kids at all.

I study from say 5am and take several small 5 minute breaks and some physcial exercise breaks as well but I feel guilty to just relax. I take the odd day off to go out or morning but usually those days I study more at night then to make up. its a viscious cycle really.

I am at college and I am 18 and I am so angry at my school for losing my assignment because now I have to do it all over again due to their dumb actions.

rings o fires

I don't want a generic response, like, "I get you", or, "Hang Tough", because I my hatred is is much stronger than that.

shop open from 5am-11am work it out

oats and apple and cinnamon, banana, biscuit, omlete and peppers, cheese and pickle gerkins, watermelon and ice-cream, cous cous basil cellery and tomato and cherry bocconcini cheese - feel like a pig, still craving gerkins and watercress and radish and alfalfa and cheese.