Confessions about 'Hate'

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fuck off dirty bitshit

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I feel sick with worry.

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i can't switch off the negative voices to read. I am sick of looking at white paper and teaching myself. where have all the quality teachers gone? I can only assume most of them don't want to teach well so the next generations will benefit so I wonder how they think progression will move for humans after they are gone? the problem is teachers used to be judged on their pass rate success rates like a sales person with sales targets and they were more professional and accountable, now they are lazy don't care enough, selfish, overpaid and waste time and abuse students are very unliked. I used to want to be a teacher with children or adults but now I wonder what it would have been like? I can't teach anything however.

i can't switch off the negative voices to read. I am sick of looking at white paper and teaching mys...

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I hate you queen bitch ! hope you die !

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where is the love you promised me god? I can't see it or feel it.

Hate

stink shit vomit urine and sleeping in a coffin house cobwebs spiders and snakes and god, even scorpions.

stink shit vomit urine and sleeping in a coffin house cobwebs spiders and snakes and god, even scorp...

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I don't understand men who say "oh I hate passive agressive women or people" what are they after ? completely passive or assertive agressive? what? because when you have faced violent active direct agressive violent people like I had a uncle who was constantly threatening to bash me or my dad or someone in the family or his neighbors, he had this little old lady so terrified next door to him and he was this big bulk of a man giant with no class. he was very intimidating, then I met women also like that and I noticed some men really liked it. this voilent style uncoathe women? I don't understand it. so I spent all my teens and twenties with this violent wife basher threatening and sexually groping at me and assaulting me. then to meet other violent women and being abused. I can't see what men see in women who bash other women for their love and sex and attentions. I don't even know how these women manage to get people to help them. probably out of fear. I never reported my uncle asssaulting me out of fear. so that is a big motivator. how can men like bully bitches who are violent. they look for what they get.

I don't understand men who say "oh I hate passive agressive women or people" what are they after ? c...

Abuse, Hate

the real art of term is lost

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go blow it out your ass dirty ugly old queen bitch ! fck off everyone is suck of your shit and abuse.

go blow it out your ass dirty ugly old queen bitch ! fck off everyone is suck of your shit and abuse...

Pride, Hate

die katy die! die katy dog die! your trouble to every woman you meet. you cover up so much with lies til the lies are too big to hold you up and then it all falls down around you over cock! its always over dick and cock with your type. how could any man love something like you. you are evil. you kill to win selfishly. you should see what trouble you caused your victims so should joyce. it would serve them well to see the trauma they have caused and left behind them to get to the top selfishly and they still won't be happy at the top, because nothing pleases these women who sex violence, all you will get is crap from joyce I seen her fighting it out with kitty sadie and all this bullshit tittie fight rubbish she goes on with, the woman is a looney battering young virgins like what she did to me. so jealous but it is still murder what she did. joyce has a dirty secret past of murder i think you might find murdering for sex. that is how she met her first useless husband and who protects this stupid spastic woman? and the born troublemaking whore she is. everywhere she goes she causes trouble she can't help herself like katy robo dog. she tortured my father and caused him serious health problems and mental problems, I have tortured by doctors doing abusive games on me as well. I don't understand their game but I know it doesn't make me love them more for their abuse. it turns me against them.

die katy die! die katy dog die! your trouble to every woman you meet. you cover up so much with lies...

Pride, Hate

I hate men who say "I don't like passive aggressive women" yet most people are that anyway? so what you like openly violent aggressive women? well don't complain when they bash and attack you then cuz I don't want to hear it and you wont be getting pity and sympathy from me, you look for what you get in violent aggressive fight rather then flight women. you look for the violent marriage and life you get ! idiots.

I hate men who say "I don't like passive aggressive women" yet most people are that anyway? so what ...

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she violently attacked me for sex with another man and he should not have been coming on to me if he was with another women and look at the evil in what the two of them plotted, its evil. katy and rick are evil people. they murder. katy is a killing sexual demonic with no self control and she has all the excuses in the world she will make up to why she is this way violent bashing other women for sex everywhere she goes. she has had many men and many husbands. this little girly knows her games don't you worry about that little demon witch hooker. its been around and I know she was fucking other students at university, bosses and other men she is violent to women to get sex from men. this has worked for her til she meets her match and I sure hope someone does bash her and kills her.

she violently attacked me for sex with another man and he should not have been coming on to me if he...

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I really feel I had to write to you kristine about this one. I was always yoyo weight and got to a size 14-16 when I was at university and my life was falling down around me and I had tried jenny craig and could not stand the food, I carried the weight for a while and all the men were ignoring me for my older sister who always got men easily. she has been married 3 times while I am 45 never been married. I don't know when the first time I felt "this is why I am fat" but when I was about 8 my dad said to me when my older sister was putting on a tantrum- "give her what she wants to shut her up" and this became a pattern all our lives. now this girl has not been happy til I am slammed and killed into the ground she hates me so much and has been saying that to me for the last 11 or more years after each marriage and new "fuck victory" she find (pardon the french but that is all it is to her)... I think I as the middle child was shy and been sexually abused by an old drunk man who lived near by made me feel worthless that day when my dad said that to me - that I had to keep giving this older sister, this girl who never grew up what she wanted while I felt helpless defeated and a fatty joke. I did so much for her- look after her baby, prop her up for each husband, put make up on her for parties and nighclubbing while literally no one noticed I had a need or feeling. no one cared what the hell I did how hurt and lonely I was, so long as this other girl was smiling and happy and getting people to love her and getting them to hate me. i couldn't do enough to try to win her love. even last when I lost weight I felt bad and went to a size 6 from 16 I stayed away from her, then I started gaining the weight the more I was rejected by men and the more she was getting married and her man I was not allowed to meet, last year I exercised every night sometimes for 3 hours a day and I take antidepresants that doctors say don't make you gain weight I don't agree, I don't over indulge a lot only sometimes when I get into cake as a treat once a month or a few cheese and crackers, instead of fruit. but last year when I got dress up with my mum to go to a high tea my mum sent my sister a photo of us together and my sister proudly said when I came home "I sent it to my husband allan in the Filipponines and he said you are a ugly fat cow" I started watching porn films of women mooing in cow shit and thinking I was a cow. I met a woman who said to me i had to bark like a dog before any many would love me. and I started barking like a dog in my room on the bed. like I had to live it out at some level. as a child I even cut my genitals because I blamed that part of my body for that dirty old man touching me there. recently I had to have byopsies done in the vaginal area from a vaginal itch and after rape I had a stroke and feared stds so much but nothing ever showed in pathology results. I have put on weight and now a size 18-20 this year from last years size 16 and yeh I made a pact to lose weight but I feel I need motivation and help more then ever, since I was in and out of hospital and I had several re-occuring middle ear infections since a car accident I am truey greatful to be alive and I watch a lot of videos from loeylane and other girls about positive body love, but I get no real help at church or from friends or family. I asked my mum "why does my older sister need to say all these hurtful things to me and abuse me and would someone please have the balls to ask this girl- when are you going to allow your sister to marry and feel like a lady? and have a baby? "mum, how broken do I have to be to make this girl feel good about herself, keep giving her what she wants, all the men wanting her over me, her having the babies and weddings every other year? when will someone stand up to this girl and say "enough is enough" I want to tell her that myself but she just screams at me. it needs to come from someone she least would suspects n admires n male. so when am I going to stop allowing my sister to keep me fat? is my question maybe? That is SO wrong of her. You are not worthless, you are not a cow, a dog, a pig, anything like that. I am so sorry you are going through this. I would love to stand up to her for you to be honest. Would you be open to a 3 way zoom call where you can confront her with a third party? how much more broken do I have to be for you to be a happy loved women rose, joyce, katy robo-dog and kelly etc?

I really feel I had to write to you kristine about this one. I was always yoyo weight and got to a s...

Pride, Hate

a female journalist in brisbane was playing abusive mind games on me over a pop star so I just didn't want anything to do with that loser band anyway.

a female journalist in brisbane was playing abusive mind games on me over a pop star so I just didn'...

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i have had 2 periods this month plus the stitches in the vagina that bled for about week everytime I moved so i just sat in bed and studied caught up on investments and health fell behind in other stuff, its all over the bloody place

i have had 2 periods this month plus the stitches in the vagina that bled for about week everytime I...

Pride, Hate

anna-maria was a druggy and prostitute and she runs around all these ministers of religion and she caused me a heap of trouble on websites stalking me on facebook, linkedin and supportgroups.com and I think she is a nutter! liar, I even think she might have more then 1 child to be honest I think there is a lot of lies there, her assembly of god group and I didn't understand her giggling and making inappropriate jokes about people and she doesnt like the catholics, but I don't either because I believe they have abused me, they didn't provide me with the adequete help in education or spiritual growth or when I was being molested for years and when I was assaulted and attacked, they, didn't provide my father with adequete help in his job at the church school either to assist in his further education while working and looking after an abused family, on poverty row, and they didn't provide socialization for me or anything good enough to help me, we didn't even have money for santity napkins and the toilet you had to go to was either a outside one or in a pokey dungeon with grubs/worms all over it and water and you had to put up a umbrella to not get wet and bricks and planks on the bricks from the puddle of sewage and water everywhere, one time it was like knee high and the landlords wouldn't do much to help. its not normal to be abused like this.

anna-maria was a druggy and prostitute and she runs around all these ministers of religion and she c...

Abuse, Hate

its really dirty when pasters who are old and fat and married stalk and abuse women who are just looking for better friends and younger men their own age to mix with. like tony is an old paster too old for my company anyway. and I have more class and finesse than to be around some yobo swill pig like him. he has children in their 30s and I am not interested in some old guy of 60 who is a dirty minister talking dirty rubbish. that is why my doctor told me to stay away from anna-maria because she is trouble.

its really dirty when pasters who are old and fat and married stalk and abuse women who are just loo...

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i am pretty sure it was tony and jason from bayside church stalking and abusing me on supportgroups.com the man is a nutcase! he should have a fire cracker shoved up his asshole.

i am pretty sure it was tony and jason from bayside church stalking and abusing me on supportgroups....

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I didn't want to go to the shitty places I went to, I wanted a boyfriend who was maybe a law student or lawyer or something to date me, take me out to fancy dining and drive me out places and buy me nice jewelry and go nice places during the day like scenic drives and other events and nice hotel rooms. not the bullshit I got. the uncivil shitbag nightclubs and loud music of stupid bands, and silly pathetic attempts at invites by dirty neighbors who stole william on me. hmmm. I mean he couldn't even come up to me and make time for me and treat me like I had something worthwhile to add to talk about child abuse issues I wanted raised. oh no! I wanted to marry and have a baby and study at the same time, all this time wasted. wasted... so you think I am some scum who only deserves a scum like ken carey well, I come from better, my parents expect people to treat me to better then that. ken would never be good enough to me or them.

I didn't want to go to the shitty places I went to, I wanted a boyfriend who was maybe a law student...

Pride, Hate

would prefer to be going out, o'sullivans idea of love is crying and hugging, my idea of love is lavish expensive luxuary holidays and dining out and going to events dressed up together and being treated nice. my idea of love is having a baby together and being their for each other not her bullshit. no woman wants to be told "oh your man will be old and have badly looked after feet and you won't go out much" and I told police this was complete abusive corruption of this foul demonic woman. you mongrel murdering bitch o'sullivan you should be killed - first of all you make out I got you raped when how could i get you raped when I was a child, I don't know witchcraft, I had no control over the men you were with, I had nothing to do with your issues, then you get people to abuse me and all this satanic rubbish of trying to make me some old nun no man wants. well fuck you dog. i don't have to live by your prophecy rubbish clavioyant witchy non-sense. I want to go out and be wined and dined lavishly always have and always will, yes I like home time as well and family life and quiet time but I like to go out classy places as well, you senile retard. no woman wants to hear the morbid depressing rubbish you spin! you dirty spider, your so lazy you seen bruises and signs of abuse as a teacher and did nothing to help. you deserve to be punished for that.

would prefer to be going out, o'sullivans idea of love is crying and hugging, my idea of love is la...

Murder, Hate