Confessions about &#x27; Hate &#x27;

now the party is over and its night I feel so empty and can't rest and have to work tomorrow

now the party is over and its night I feel so empty and can't rest and have to work tomorrow

I am done with all of you.

i want to take omega oil capsules but when I do i get reflux and heart pain. this also happened with rosehip oil and I broke out in a allergic rash and itch from seaseme seed oil and rice bran oil. I bought that cleansing oil for the face and I just can't use it. I even have breathing problems from it. for years now I have said no to doctors about ventelin sprays I can't bare my heart racing madly or going too slow, that is worse.

i want to take omega oil capsules but when I do i get reflux and heart pain. this also happened with...

mum and dad have already talked to the bank accountants about me to be protected from my sister and her weirdo deli's as dad calls them, her "asshole mate, not soul mate" dad says they don't trust them. they and joyce and a group of doctors have been trying to kill me with witchcraft. I felt it when I went to see the gyno like there was black magic going on around there and he seen me as a complete door mat and someone was doing some kind of wicca activity and it had been going on for a while with all the viruses, infections and car accident and stopping me from having friends and jobs and a husband and children whoever the group is they have been at it for decades maybe as far back as 1973 or 74.

mum and dad have already talked to the bank accountants about me to be protected from my sister and ...

i didn't try to kill myself, a ghost or a evil omen got inside of me to get me to put that fucking thing in my ear, I swear I never tried to kill myself someone around me got something to attack me several times. and I don't have to talk about it. I heard things the cats seen and heard things ghosty weird things I just can't talk about. I don't like it anyway.

i didn't try to kill myself, a ghost or a evil omen got inside of me to get me to put that fucking t...

why I won't say much about things going on in the neighborhood is because you don't think I already could guess I need more vril regularly?

why I won't say much about things going on in the neighborhood is because you don't think I already ...

I know I am not a racist because I get on with heaps of indian men and asian women and men and other people from other places. I try to be nice to everyone most of the time. I am like everyone else I have disagreements with different people regardless of their race or sex or religion etc. so don't label me something I am not.

I know I am not a racist because I get on with heaps of indian men and asian women and men and other...

I was expecting to be liked by hospital staff and treated nicer. I was expecting to be liked and welcomed at the churches and choirs and treated nicely, I was expecting to be liked at the colleges I went to and the social clubs and the support groups where I was bullied, I was in, I mean all these years of bullying adds up to more and more evidence and I don't feel guilty at all anymore they I used to. some people know how to take then give all they give is insults and take every cent from you, every guy, every job, everything and its not the way I operate.

I was expecting to be liked by hospital staff and treated nicer. I was expecting to be liked and wel...

number 1 stop comparing yourself with all these dirty ugly royals and pop star asshole and rich assholes who have nothing good to offer you at all. make it clear to them you don't want to know them that you are better then them and all these churches and stupid mental therapists who just want your money and these royals don't like you they are never going to like you or treat you right so ignore them absolutely as they have done to you. stop allowing your sister to abuse you and all her helpers. kick them up the ass back as much as possible because they are all fakers. forget these dumb little choirs and dumb little doctors and all these transinvestigation idiots. they put shit in your head to make you think they are all powerful when they are not! never will be! no matter what success you or they have they have no power over you at all by today deciding to never notice them ever again. as you said catherine- there is more to life than loving yourself, like working or doing something honest with integrity and its mighty unfortunate you have meet a lot of rather sad mad crazy people lacking in all those things you think you admire in them is actually not real and you will it for yourself one day; these lacking integrety people you have met and there are better people to meet then this scum lot.

number 1 stop comparing yourself with all these dirty ugly royals and pop star asshole and rich assh...

so what if I told you I don't want to be your friend and you didn't live up to what I expected, cuz that is how I felt about the choirs and churches. I said to desdog- "oh I am so glad your so proud of me but guess what I am not proud of any of you and don't like any of you. and I told a number of people to just fuck off or I said it clear- I don't have to take your bullying just because you are a dwarf spastic dog that thinks herself and has been spoilt etc!

so what if I told you I don't want to be your friend and you didn't live up to what I expected, cuz ...

this bullshit the caremilite nuns pull about your not worthy to say gods name or enter his house etc. and god serfices enough alone, is a load of crap. sorry but god is never been enough for me, god put us on earth to experience our life and my mum and dad said this penance crap with born again churches and catholic cum squats is not on! they said the catholics and the other churches can go shove it. these people are bullies mentally abusing me making up excuses and mum and dad don't support all these abuses and said they will tell them off.

this bullshit the caremilite nuns pull about your not worthy to say gods name or enter his house etc...

my father said my therapists are overpaid and not doing enough to help me.

the denist was like what the f has happened to inside your mouth its all burnted and blistered, I said hot fucking food and too hot servered tea. like a few months ago I went off at a waister politely but I still let them know I was put out it took so long for the desserts to come out, that were ordered with the tea and coffee, I was polite but I said look we have been waiting here nearly an 1hour this is stupid, i have not been back there cuz I swear the dickhead there overcharged me.

the denist was like what the f has happened to inside your mouth its all burnted and blistered, I sa...

I think it gave saria russo a powerful sexual thrill she could decide who got to be sexual beings if they had jobs they did and if they didnt get jobs which some she made sure didn't they were not allowed me sexual. don't you think that sounds like a crazy woman with too much power. and the way she got that arab bastard from her mongrel breed to say shit at me... and yet it was you who did wrong sarina "you did wrong" you did wrong" like a chingchong!

I think it gave saria russo a powerful sexual thrill she could decide who got to be sexual beings if...

don't be misunderstood, ricky and bands and named people were never nice or caring towards me. they were rude, abusive, gamey, and cruel, unrespectful and if you gonna bother you should do it for genuine reasons which is something these immature guys could never be. if it takes a guy to turn 30 before they are mature to show care are they worth my time? no! I was a caring person much younger. so I just think that all these people who have abused me over being molested you need to take responsibility for your actions guys! stop causing confusing and it doesn't give you the right to treat people like crap.

don't be misunderstood, ricky and bands and named people were never nice or caring towards me. they ...

it sounded like the person over the road was shot with something I mean I started to wonder was this their idea of entertainment or for real? like I said to mum if any of them start abusing me again I am going to confront them. like I hate my neighbors, I just hate her so much, I do not trust them. I don't like them. I just think they kill and play evil games as their fun. look some people murder for fun. I know its hard to understand if you are not like that yourself. but some people even doctors and ambulance they are not the good guys. they represent evil and killing some of them. that is all I am going to say about them. you can't trust just because they say to or cuz they wear a uniform or whatever, I found doctors either over exadurate or they minimilize and they think the majority of their patients are idiots, they don't really care about you as a person, your just money to them. that is it.

it sounded like the person over the road was shot with something I mean I started to wonder was this...

yeh that little jury were trying to kill me, they have been for ages. and I am sick of them cunts, they are bullies and loosers, assholes, the queen is a complete bitch I used to think she was nice but I have woken up and seen people for who they really are, after the last church episode made me see just how evil and how far some people will go - like I thought about this spastic niggar whore bitch at bayside family christain church who does healing, you really think whore niggar dog I am going to be so dumb to fall for your game of I need to do penance. like go eat your own shit whore! you must be so fucking idol or vain you think I am going to honestly fall for your bullshit and games you black user bastards that fucked up the world with all your niggar bullshit, life hard on a black niggar not likely. obama makes me want to puke that retarted bin landen lookalike.

yeh that little jury were trying to kill me, they have been for ages. and I am sick of them cunts, t...

no, no it would never occur to me to say someone really did love or care about them, I mean, I never wanted the love of david or ricky or ken or russell or old farts anyway. I only ever want love from those I loved not from shitbag users. but believe me that little jury of 3 they got the world all worked out manipulating people gaming and dirty little secrets and dirty little acts of theirs. they don't give a rats ass about people like us. they dont live in the real world to begin with. that is why I left qut- no one there lived in the real world. bunch of idiots that just believe their own publicity which is actually really pathetic.

no, no it would never occur to me to say someone really did love or care about them, I mean, I never...