Confessions about 'Pride'

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Pride, Love

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ Wanting ♡╯▅╰╱▔▔▔▔▔▔▔╲╯╯☼ ▕▕╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╲╲╭╭ ▕▕╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╱┛▂╲╲╭ ╱▂▂▂▂▂▂╱╱┏▕╋▏╲╲ ▔▏▂┗┓▂▕▔┛▂┏▔▂▕▔ ▕▕╋▏▕╋▏▏▕┏▏▕╋▏▏ ▕┓▔┗┓▔┏▏▕┗▏┓▔┏▏ . ╲╲╲╲╲┏━━━┓╱╱╱╱╱ ╲┏━━━┻━━━┻━━━┓╱ ╲┃╭━╮┏━━━┓╭━╮┃╱ ╱┃┃╳┃┣◯━◯┫┃╳┃┃╲ ╱┃╰━╯┣━━━┫╰━╯┃╲ ╱┃┈▊▊▊▊┈▂▃▅▇┈┃╲ ╱┗━━━━━━━━━━━┛╲. ╲╲╲╲╲┏━━━┓╱╱╱╱╱ ╲┏━━━┻━━━┻━━━┓╱ ╲┃╭━╮┏━━━┓╭━╮┃╱ ╱┃┃╳┃┣◯━◯┫┃╳┃┃╲ ╱┃╰━╯┣━━━┫╰━╯┃╲ ╱┃┈▊▊▊▊┈▂▃▅▇┈┃╲ ╱┗━━━━━━━━━━━┛╲ ╲╲╲╲╲┏━━━┓╱╱╱╱╱ ^^^^^^^^^ (_______) ^^^^^^^^^^^^ ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Pride, Love

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ Wanting ♡╯▅╰╱▔▔▔▔▔▔▔╲╯╯☼ ▕▕╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╲╲╭╭ ▕▕╱╱╱╱╱╱╱╱┛▂╲╲╭ ╱▂▂▂▂▂▂╱╱┏▕╋▏╲╲ ▔▏▂┗┓▂▕▔┛▂┏▔▂▕▔ ▕▕╋▏▕╋▏▏▕┏▏▕╋▏▏ ▕┓▔┗┓▔┏▏▕┗▏┓▔┏▏ . ╲╲╲╲╲┏━━━┓╱╱╱╱╱ ╲┏━━━┻━━━┻━━━┓╱ ╲┃╭━╮┏━━━┓╭━╮┃╱ ╱┃┃╳┃┣◯━◯┫┃╳┃┃╲ ╱┃╰━╯┣━━━┫╰━╯┃╲ ╱┃┈▊▊▊▊┈▂▃▅▇┈┃╲ ╱┗━━━━━━━━━━━┛╲. ╲╲╲╲╲┏━━━┓╱╱╱╱╱ ╲┏━━━┻━━━┻━━━┓╱ ╲┃╭━╮┏━━━┓╭━╮┃╱ ╱┃┃╳┃┣◯━◯┫┃╳┃┃╲ ╱┃╰━╯┣━━━┫╰━╯┃╲ ╱┃┈▊▊▊▊┈▂▃▅▇┈┃╲ ╱┗━━━━━━━━━━━┛╲ ╲╲╲╲╲┏━━━┓╱╱╱╱╱ ^^^^^^^^^ (_______) ^^^^^^^^^^^^ ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

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I was like lucy leek, clean clean clean the house, using old toothbrushes to clean the carpet edging and vacum and mop 5 times a day on one floor from the age of 7 til 35 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VoNKLbPvCrY I even gave up going to parties and meeting up with friends just to clean and clean and clean and wash and wash and wash and mop and vacum and dust and clean and clean and clean. I even got a job cleaning I loved it so much, cleaning bathrooms and kitchens and making beds for hours a day. and my sister sure helped me with my ocd of cleaning... fucking mongrel bitch. she had the hide to call one of those pop stars mr messy which is herself. she sure cured me of a ocd cleaning disorder with all her mess and grott and running around around around after her when she was in hospital .https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pdffu6Y6U84 wish someone would run around and around after me since i was in hospital.

I was like lucy leek, clean clean clean the house, using old toothbrushes to clean the carpet edging...

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It's hard for me to trust people now It's hard for me to trust people now. Are there any genuine human beings left? Because I sure as h*** don't feel like there are.

It's hard for me to trust people now It's hard for me to trust people now. Are there any genuine hum...

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the devils own bitch. you are a mongrel evil bitch of a dirty old woman. you are a dangerous and an abusive sick disgusting lesbian violent woman with no morals get out of my life witch. stop abusing me devil whore! to joyce jasminlie poorter !

the devils own bitch. you are a mongrel evil bitch of a dirty old woman. you are a dangerous and an...

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I spent so many nights alone with parents and grandparents when my sister or brother were out partying and I used to think can wait for the day when its them crying alone wondering why no one likes them "all those nights I sat at home sitting by the telephone wondering if you were ever coming home. solitare see what its like now, solitare to cry all night now, solitare see how it feels to pay! "

I spent so many nights alone with parents and grandparents when my sister or brother were out partyi...

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Action Games My s** is straight, I am a normal girl, but, I like playing boys games such as Call of duty, battlefield, resident evil, WWE and many!! I have bought my PS3 instantly when it has been on the stocks, then I realized that the games should be actions for me to be thrilled. I don't know, but I like that, so take my PS3 ID boys to be knocked out!!

Action Games My s** is straight, I am a normal girl, but, I like playing boys games such as Call of ...

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i just want to warn some people how deviant lawyers and professionals can be who are rich and successful. I went to a job interview naive fresh out of college law school and this guy comes out while police were dusting for finger prints and he said that morning he had sacked his legal partner assistant for fraud, and I was applying for a job there just as a receptionist and I felt bad straight away like this was not a good place to work. he was fat tall and bearded loud and overbearing and was dressed in a slopping huge jet black suit and was actually mastubating in front of me behind the desk while he interviewed me. I couldn't wait to get out and I did not even want the job after that and rang my mum at the bus stop and what was strange i noticed he had all these huge books on the German ss and third Reich and the guy just sickened me, that is not the way a lawyer should act. the worst thing was after that I stopped wearing pretty dresses. I had worn a pretty shift dress that I felt really confident and great in, it was my complete "go to dress" for a boast of confidence and after that I stopped wearing attractive things, then a neighbor grabbed my knee one day and came over and was groping at me and i didn't like it at all with his bear breath and he was hitting 70-80 and said he would leave his wife for someone like me, which to me was a insult. I lost frank out of his confusion and lack of genuine response and his flightiness cus he was going out with so many girls i was not keen to jump in and i was always having aid hiv tests as well so I didn't want to do anything without being careful. but don't think just cuz someone has been a lawyer or professional their some god and great person. they take many casualities down to get to success and are capable of child abuse, sexual harrasment etc, one guy was sexually harrasing me at another job and they were crazy people. rich as real estate people, the type that attract fakers and assholes. these rich sales guys who are old and boring, I just up and walked out and resigned and called him a old man old enough to be my grandfather to get the message across how rude he was sexually and verbal insults about my studying chemistry and physics and making fun as if I was stupid and small minded, professions are not any ball game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they like to think everyone else is so dumb, I grew up believing i was dumb, I knew I was shy which was a huge set back and i had way too much pride to show embarrassment or cry in front of people and more fear then most kids. I had to put up with this old epileptic drunk urine saturated old man molesting me and pretend everything was happy happy happy and by god it was not at all. I was a angry child sometimes. I was never the cool kids but wanted to be. don't think any one in law or rich professions is gonna be mr nice cuz even doctors i worked for could be complete shitheads and highly promiscuous compared to my mild kinks.

i just want to warn some people how deviant lawyers and professionals can be who are rich and succes...

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suffering states of the mind need to be addressed to find real life and everlasting love and having purpose and jubilation away from bullying and attackers!

suffering states of the mind need to be addressed to find real life and everlasting love and having ...

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my parents and doctors are angry that I have been left in poverty without any friends or man and I deserve to be treated better. Its not fair and I have asked several times for people to stop bullying and abusing me and I mean it. soon I will get my doctors and a lawyer to write a letter to rsl and churches who have abused me, and make them search down this bunnypoeta and leigh morris, and ken who made threats at me. leigh made threats at me i had to go to that stupid cocktail party that was not even a party at all. no one spoke no one was dancing no one ate but for a few trays of snacks, there was no music and party atmosphere going on up alcohol. you could have seen a better party at our dive house years ago then that party. when you say cocktail party one has expectations of music, entertainment, quality foods and mix of non-alcoholic and so on drinks and music and dancing and people forced to talk to one another all over the place, you expect a certain atmosphere and standard like proper entertainment like a soul or r&b singer and sociability with people and some proper fundraising at the event like raffles and games etc. there games were unreal abnormal. I was so poor I just wore a black dress pants and I knew I would cold so I had to wear a jumper and my doctor didn't want me to go to the party because of the medication and leigh threated me if I didn't go she would push me out of the quest. I didn't want to go. I was too unwell to go, and it was no fun anyway. it was the most boring dull party ever, my cats know how to party more then they do. one of my doctors has made a lot of comments about how bullied me and my sister have been. a handful of my doctors are very angry over it and so are my parents. at least rose has been married twice and had a child. I haven't even been married once and have no child and no career, no graduation I should have been entitled to all that if everyone else is. stop bullying me or you will get it cunthole DB HANDBY! I owe you nothing. infact you owe me. everyone owes me, not me owing them. I am trying to make good of a bad situation but you didn't need to make it worse assshole DB. fuck off cunt. you fuck off bastard. stop abusing me! Joyce threated me, ken threatened me, rick threathened me. I don't have to take you abusing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my doctors can't fight a case in law against you all you know, on my behave. any of my doctors or family or friends or co-workers, or therapists can fight you in a court on my behalf for the last 20 years or more of abuse. so stop abusing me.

my parents and doctors are angry that I have been left in poverty without any friends or man and I d...

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its a good thing I love my cats they cost us over $2,500 in the last few weeks and I need a holiday or a wage or something. I wish they could pay for their keep. all I do is apply for stupid jobs and never get a look in the door and I am sick of it. even when I had cancer I applied for jobs. even on disability I applied for jobs living in hope life could get better. I think its a sure guarentee that I won't marry or have kids or work full time or graduate from university - university was a complete waste of time and engery. I had to do something its not like I had hot guys after me. no one ever put in a huge effort to show any heart or ask me out like they ment it. I am sick of being abused. people wonder why i am celibate most of my life, but I was a virgin til 29 and had no job that I wanted to have. I didn't have privilege. no one ever saw value or competency in me but sandy when I was young. no one asked me what subjects at school i was good at and aim for work in that. I was told to just get any job the lowest possible casual part time hotel room cleaner apart from selling programs at sporting events and pocket money jobs, that is all its ever been pocket money jobs. at least i did save some while doing hotel work but it was hard on my back, near bloody killed me doing that work from 6am til 3 or 4 pm some days. I was lucky if I got home after 4 even if i finished at 2pm cuz of trains, university I had to travel 2 hours there and 2 hours home every freaking day. what for? to be treated like this? I never asked for this sort of life. no one said to me "if your good at bookkeeping go do that or go try something in retail etc" it was like joyce was like, "do the lowest level work cuz that is all you are and can hope for cuz you are shit" that was the message i picked up from her all the time. you can't have a police man or a male model or a doctor or anything I have. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EwViQxSJJQ joyce was standing in my front yard laughing putting me down, telling me how I am such a fool, I would never have a man like her. every woman did that to me but a few. joyce must know about me, what I do. since I am not your everything as a client and client loyalty, replacing you has been easier then I ever imagined.

its a good thing I love my cats they cost us over $2,500 in the last few weeks and I need a holiday ...

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i use my own "clinical" judgment now, my doctor wanted me to go have Ctscan on my sinuses and I said no, too much radiation exposure in 2014 I will wait to see what the surgeon/specialist says first.

i use my own "clinical" judgment now, my doctor wanted me to go have Ctscan on my sinuses and I said...

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I cried and said goodbye to my mother and my cat and cried and said "mum I have to go to hospital I can't get out of it this time there are brain injuries now and mastoid mri's and heart and blood tests and all my records went with me. sometimes I just want to find that ambulance guy or the police man I liked. all I really wanted to do was for someone to hold me. inside I was screaming in fear of death. This time at the hospital it will be ok. I can cope better anyway, it will be a while before I see any surgeon. every time I go near that hospital I cry cuz I really thought I would die. my mum couldn't understand why I felt like I was wanting to go to hospital or be near ambulance people but there were times I couldn't breath and then I woke up to something a ambulance officer asked me one night "have you got a uti or has anyone else in the house got uti" I was complaining of constant urination flow and vomiting and pain in the neck when I moved it and one night I couldn't swallow it was extremely painful it took about 30 mins to be able to swallow without water and I literally held my tongue in my front teeth of fear of swallowing it due to the spasm and choking swelling from something. that night I swear I seen some hooded dark ghost in the window of the ambulance I never told anyone but it felt too unreal ever tell a soul.

I cried and said goodbye to my mother and my cat and cried and said "mum I have to go to hospital I ...

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look at me ? who would want to go out with me at 46 with no children never been married and so fat and ugly? right. all my ear and health problems and you know what hurt me the most I couldn't even get to thank the nicer ambulance officers that took me to hospital in tears struggling to walk and it felt like I had a helment on my head from the histimines how the effected the membrane around the brain and all the sudifed, I can't believe GP's or doctor in australia would put me in hospital I begged them to but they wouldn't. I got sick of trying to medicate and monitor medications myself and too much sudifed is dangerous and anti-inflammatory. all I wanted was for someone to hold me so I could just cry. they had heart monitors on me every time I went to hospital. now I know why! one day I will tell someone the whole story and they will see how evil and unfair it is and how none of it made sense to a reasonable person. its taught me to never really trust anyone ever again. if joyce and rick and katy and ken wasn't enough abuse and lessons, doctors abusing me has and these neighbors abusing me. butting in on my childhood and illnesses and assaults I have suffered. when you hear the full story it will shock the hell out of anyone.

look at me ? who would want to go out with me at 46 with no children never been married and so fat a...

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look at them loving themselves and you think.. I know where you are at, that was the loneliness isolated time of my life and no one liked me for my good looks, so how do you think they really are. faking it too! the church told me (we turn to outward ungodly things and sex and lust and looks and body image and sex and money when we are indebt to god in ourselves indebt and redundant and escaping gods truths). and you know you don't want to fall down that hole again! been there and done that and everyone ends up a sucker there. wiser people back off. only maturity and experience can teach you when to say "enough already who gives a dam!"

look at them loving themselves and you think.. I know where you are at, that was the loneliness isol...

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once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competition now. you get thrown on a sexual, job and life scrap heap. my parents went through it and so have I. its life's way of kicking you down. like australia post stealing my mail. soon I am ringing the obudsmen to complain. probably my shithouse cousin is behind that out of vendetta just because he abused me as a kid. you can blame joyce , spongybum user bunnypoopeta bunnpoeta the joke of all jokes, i never wanted others knowing my business. his and joyce and ken's and leigh's threats made me do eratic things out of anxeity and phobic fear of being bashed. that is another reason i won't come into relationships. it usually starts and ends with being bashed by some slut dog or deranged male. nope. won't come into it. I laugh at others in relationships cuz you have to ask yourself. "how did that ugly bitch get him or how did that ugly bastard get her" and usually its violence that got them there just like in jobs too. politics all based on violence and threats not popularity. wake up world you sure need to be educated by me to be enlighten!

once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competi...

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i never put myself out there or flirt if i am thin or fat, but being overweight i didn't put myself out there at parties on the ship i could have because i see myself as disgustingly ugly. i met a really nice doctor on the ship and his partner from russia and they were so nice she was taller then me but blumpy but i see her as exotic with her culture and his culture from another part of the world I can't remember where, but he was perfect and to me i just see this ugly old fat unhappy sad, lonely, no hoper that every one hates and i hate my body deeply. i think most overweight lonely people with illness don't embrace this fat body love crap and fat acceptance stuff. most fat people are deeply unhappy, the only benefit to being fat is, people don't bother you for sex or annoy you when your thin they expect you to hand out sex and smiles and flirts everywhere when your fat they expect you to be unhappy and sad and depressed and quiet and that is my true character, i have been more depressed in my life then anything else even with money or without money. flirting is not my thing. i am very matter of fact and business like with men. i only ever tried flirting for about 1- 2 year zone when i was 3-32 because i was thin. but even as a teen and young woman i never flirted and prefered to study and be alone with my cats and i mean it was clear men didn't like me and all the useless unwanted ugly old men would bother me. now they pick up the fuck off sign i were on my forhead everywhere i go. i am not interested at all til i am the person i want to be then i will let love in. another guy in support group feels the same way, he said "if i have no job then i won't allow myself a relationship and i am the same", it makes people realise you are not gonna just take what comes or sell yourself up or down for just sex. i am not interested in him he is way too old for me. my attitude is no career and no thinness no flirting and no sex and i place a price of currancy on everything about me when it is how i want it then i might flirt, but without a job your a nothing even if thin or family money, or university you're a nothing without a big job. i never paid for any dates with any men. i never made others a slave to me i would say others tried to make me a slave to them and i won't be that. they can be there own slaves. the presumption that anyone expected anything of a loser like ken just shows what a idiot he is. I am fat and ugly as he was then when he raped me and there is no hot young virgin male around for me to rape? and no one especially me, i never asked a spastic old scum to help me, he took. I was thin and single and deserved better only other people couldn't see that. i could see i deserved better, it was other people forcing things i didn't want like fat dog bec and rick and katy and i told police i have every reason to believe ken ken rick and katy and bec and all that group, its likely he knew joyce and william and others. my guess is william got him to rape me as that is the evil sort of person william is. I don't ever want to see him again because i do believe he was the one who caused all this. there was always something evil about that family and still is. i am exactally how others wanted my life to be, i stay in bed all day every day unless i need to go to the doctor or out for something. i don't talk much to people. I avoid a lot of people and i am recluse and shy again just like i was when bill abused me and ron assaulted me, they made me feel ugly. only a ugly girl gets molested by ugly old men. only ugly girls get raped by ugly fat men. only ugly girls get illnesses and only ugly girls get ignored and jobless and have no friends. its like roy sings 'only the lonely, is ugly... only the ugly" !!! and this ugly old witch dog pig faced redhead is not flirting with anyone and is openly rude sometimes if i can get away with it to certain people. i have accepted my lot in life of misery lonlenss and ugliness. only ugly people get abused as kids, or they end up ugly for being abused as kids. that is just nature and life sorting each other out. like when animals dump their young that are deformed, well it will die anyone so the mother rejects it. you have to learn to thing self self self. what is in it for me, how can i benefit from everything. being ugly and abused by ugly is a sign of gods hate for you! that is all the therapy I ever knew.

i never put myself out there or flirt if i am thin or fat, but being overweight i didn't put myself ...

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I want police and ambulance and doctors to treat me better. I am sick of being treated like nothing. even at university and school I was treated like nothing. i am the brick that got lost on the wall. I guessed what I thought i knew more then I was told, so I really am "our lady of assumption" in all ways. lol

I want police and ambulance and doctors to treat me better. I am sick of being treated like nothing...

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I woke up really sick yesterday morning I was having a meltdown panic attack over it. I got up and I was flat out walking to the toilet and so incredibly dizzy and nauseated and had some gastro as well. I was beside myself crying that the mastoid infection thing could happen again or the RN said could I have had food poisoning because I told her I had had jauntis a few weeks ago bit was just in around the eyes and I get that from time to time. anyway before I rang the doctor I remembered I had some tablets for dizzy spells so I took 1 cuz my gp isn't back from holiday yet if I get really sick I will call a home doctor or go down to the VP24 they are better then the stupid hospital. I was crying tonight because I don't want to die from this thing and I have to go to hospital soon for something I can't talk about anyway. I don't want to die. I don't want to go through it again like last time. I would kill myself then go through it again. I said that back in 2000 after that huge middle ear infection I used to lay over the side of the bed facing the floor crying all day and all night for over 6 years and I thought that was bad enough. I thought i was gonna die then but each time it has got worse. I fear so much. I got to cope some how all alone in this. no one is gonna care when i die. no one has ever cared about me. I just don't want to have anymore senseless injections of shit in me and no more xrays and ct scans of my brain etc. Mri's fine but like the RN said for me not to take anymore tablets incase the doctor fines something more wrong but I have to go to hospital in a few weeks time for something else. I can't have all these problems, sure this was not as bad as when I needed the ambulance with my brain swelling after i washed my hair and everything was double and I couldn't walk straight for weeks. I used to slide side ways up and down the hall way checking on my mothers breathing a dozen times a night when I was really sick. I have to go to hospital in a few weeks and I don't want anyone worrying about me. I am alone in this illness and i am coping as best as i can. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YoG4z3c-rZY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hgp2gheUjLA Rn asked me if I have recently hit my head, "hit my head, I can't remember! since the car accident" but usually its the dam cupboard in the kitchen I hit my head on or something else inflicted. but I am feeling a bit better today anyway.

I woke up really sick yesterday morning I was having a meltdown panic attack over it. I got up and I...

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