Confessions about 'Pride'

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just feeling like life is hopeless. was supposed to go out yesterday to a show and today to a show and I was so tired and I woke up with really bad back pain and I was thinking "Oh just go you will only ache in the back at home, why not ache in the back out for a while looking at other things meeting new people" but I was like "I have nothing to wear" I feel so ugly and fat and why should I bother, I said to mum I think I will get so fat I can only fit into a huge robe towel only and just watch every bitch who has abused me wear all my pretty clothes and self punishment and penance that the bayside family christain church said I had to go through penance for the abuse in my childhood. so I guess I have to set my punishment daily ! and I told my nephew/god son to never speak to me again cuz the publishing company from filiofuckoland kept calling every time I spoke to my nephew and this was offending and freaking me out. and I also told the churches and nuns "we won't be back I got the message about warbrokes bastard whore kid walking over me" and my resentment is as strong as ever towards the catholics at st mary;s ipswich and carmelites because silence never helped me and they were abusive to my father at their job network anyway. and I just feel the catholic church blantantly obviously let me down compared to their helping my sister and brother and I told them so!

just feeling like life is hopeless. was supposed to go out yesterday to a show and today to a show a...

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I have put a evil curse on all my things I own my clothes and possessions so whoever uses them will perish. I have put evil curses on all my things to my enemies who have tried to steal my things and gave some away to a nice girl I liked like me. not to anyone else.

I have put a evil curse on all my things I own my clothes and possessions so whoever uses them will ...

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catholics living in a post-liberation world. hmm!

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I am not saying I agree with everything david johnson and jungle surfer is saying about diana and kate being men as such but I think that there are some obvious fake photos doctored up that not the average person always picks up like I noticed in the elevator shots of di on the night of the accident her mirror image of her didn't even look like her in a lot of photos, then there is the fake backgrounds in some shots pointed out clearly and other factors, its kind of like the night I seen katy robodog and she was making out she came straight from work to a lecture and yet not a crease or line or stain of sweat even her clothing was too well pressed and fresh to be worn all day in any job office or design or whatever! so I was like ok, what ever. and I just kept a note of it to myself she was making out she was this big time person working and her own firm and I was "yeh right pull the other one" its like that valentina I could tell she had had a baby at least 6ths she smelt of lacating mother smell and she was making out she was a single abused neglected woman being battered and bullied like me and had no man etc, all lies my guess is she was married and divorced maybe 2 times but at least 1 and she might have had more kids then she was making out that she was like me lost her virginity older due to shyness and fear and not a lot of friends and abuse and I was like "no way, those boobs are milko baby milkshake bars mate!" they are too full the smell and the whole deep know all tone of voice and so much didn't add up just like sally. you meet them and you watch and you learn. you gotta think like a police officer with a lot of women. a woman has a great instinct and gut knowledge just men do about things when it comes to sex and power and control and alpha-sexuals, who always have to be on top like the top dog!

I am not saying I agree with everything david johnson and jungle surfer is saying about diana and ka...

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I have to agree with jungle surfer what a crock load of shit that car accident looked it looks like 2 or 3 different cars that were used in the photos and other things he says about bloke women and its all been a deliberate breaking down of feminine qualities in women from the 1920s on and will the pill where you will find women who do not take the pill have less sexual partners and are less sexual preditory because the pill is a hormone, you can't trick a female body for 30 years to think its pregnant without health problems later and you will find there has been a deliberate break down of society and attack against middle class white women mid century and the ones that took the pill were from poorer homes and the women who didn't take the pill have more shy traditional feminine qualities that women on the pill became more blokey and violent for sex and willing to kill other women for sex and marriage, its a proven fact that the more feminine nicer girls don't night club a lot, don't take the pill and its been a deliberate masculinization of society to remove the feminine from women and make men more feminine, once again social engineering from media and rich and fashion houses and they tell us what is beautiful to them not what every man thinks is beautiful or what every other person things is beauty. its been a deliberate depersonalization plan by people like the russos, royals and media to break down the more genuine people of this world and make false idols of the liars and scammers.

I have to agree with jungle surfer what a crock load of shit that car accident looked it looks like ...

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I am telling you i am sure that ken carey and his wife anne, work as a couple raping virgins, I told police this and it might sound farfetched but then there are messages i picked up also via katy and rick and joyce and that mongrel fat user magda from fast forward and I thought her whole character of lynn was made around these fergusons we met and they were complete fucking nutcases the kids were mental and the parents were mental and I still believe they got my father deliberately drunk over at their house one afternoon for some rape non-sense and someone raped him anally and whatever he had piles afterwards and the kids would have raped him or that fat slut herself. there was something strange about it all, and I picked up the nlp messages and that is why I say fast forward and lot of those shows are set up to socially engineer people and they were ment to isolate and abuse children by pedos they set up the pedo abuses, they did that 7and up series and nlp was going on with cia and intelligence in military and its not unreasonable to believe that they set a lot of women up to be ignored, then raped and their wives of this rapists are in on the social engineering and plotting to abuse victims of crime so that its always these celebs and rich and doctors and personalities getting birthday parties and people fussing after them at weddings and yes to the dress stuff and social engineering of all the bullshit in the media is to see celebs and rich bullies in IT and churches, real estate, sport and rich doctors who are frauding patients, its all socially engineered to shut down mass numbers of victims to more helplessness and so these celebs and wannabes are the ones being treated special at events when they have not suffered, oh its this royal here talking about low self esteme or self harming or cancer etc - they know nothing about it but are there getting the publicity and attention seeking ripping off the real victims that have no voice, the best example of this is that teal swan, i just don't completely buy her story out right. she is the poster pin up of child victims just because she is prettier and yet why should she be, when there are other victims and she is not that pretty. rather andronanious appeal that seems common for the last 100 or more years people comment on boy like girls and girl like boys.

I am telling you i am sure that ken carey and his wife anne, work as a couple raping virgins, I told...

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i would like to get them all and torture them in paint striper and cut out their intestines and making polo jumping routines from their bodies.

i would like to get them all and torture them in paint striper and cut out their intestines and mak...

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dad wants to squeeze squeeze and squeeze cookies throat he said til she is dead. he said he wants to do that to joyce and ken as well and bunnypoeta. squeeze and squeeze them til they are dead.

dad wants to squeeze squeeze and squeeze cookies throat he said til she is dead. he said he wants to...

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my mum and dad understand why I will not share any special day with anyone at their wedding. I will not since the age of 23 I said no lets not go to cousins wedding down the coast mum, they don't care about us. no mum I won't go to louises children christaining and be made to feel less all the time. mum and dad understand why I won't be involved in going to relatives weddings if they can't be supportive of me having love then why should I with them. mum and dad said if it were them they would feel the same way they feel the same way now. they all made fun of us. making fun of my mum and fathers wedding, making fun of my sister on wedding day infront of her guests making comments about sex positions as if she was some whore, they made fun of me at the rsl quest events I should never have asked them to help I should have known they always take over and steal the limelight and scene stealers and can't bare to see me looking great so jealous they had to have me ugly and unmarried and neglected and ignored. a person doesn't forget that. all those mongrel alp scum abusing us kids. going through bedrooms reading personal dream journals and stealing wills and diaries and getting in the way. mum said she won't go to any relatives weddings either. she refuses to because they ignored her and me, she said she will not go seeing they abused me so badly.

my mum and dad understand why I will not share any special day with anyone at their wedding. I will ...

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own up to your part in abuse of how you abused me. own up to what you did and what you done and what your doing now. own up. cuz god has been watching! you were jealous, your have been found guilty by courts and churches as abusive jealous evil demonic women of sin. what will you plea? punishment ought to be set ! most of my life you made me feel ugly small unworthy, fat, dirty, spastic, they were not my choice and my vocabulary they were yours! own up to what you have done. god has been watching!

own up to your part in abuse of how you abused me. own up to what you did and what you done and what...

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you all made me feel spastic and ugly as a child and in my teens and most of my life so what should I call you ? for the way you abused me? your ugly!!!!! you made me feel ugly everytime you showed off and flaunted yourselves as more important, yes you brigette, louise, sue, joyce, karen, rolsyn, and others. you don't know how ugly you made me feel and my sister has said the same thing you made her feel spastic and ugly. so If I felt it and she felt it and my mum felt it, we can't all be wrong.

you all made me feel spastic and ugly as a child and in my teens and most of my life so what should ...

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i don't oliva she is very over rated and a bitch towards other women she is jealous of like russo and joyce. she is more intimidated by other young women which is why I said the whole minogue thing was all set up at a time when black and white teens a lot of them were stuck in poverty and its a good thing for the celebs they were cuz there would have been competition for them and their zone talents and skills and awful personalities !

i don't oliva she is very over rated and a bitch towards other women she is jealous of like russo an...

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i did not like the way shirley and a number of theat gynos office women gossiped about patients in front of other patients in the waiting room, it looked bad for business practices and I would often think ; god only knows what they say about me, I noticed they fussed after whore hole dogs with their sprog-jobs these slutties with baby after baby whoring around like town bikes while other women are ignored. they seem to like fast go-getter male women a lot now days, who rip everyone off.

i did not like the way shirley and a number of theat gynos office women gossiped about patients in f...

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the fact is hormones and dna do change over time and you have to ask yourself all these rich companies that could be improving peoples lives they spend the money in wastful things and the so called improvement to the community or individuals lives are minimal and very plastic superficial and unfair. I can't see how these companies and govt are improving peoples lives, the homes, their socialization and a large percent of the population is tragically lonely and isolated and segrigated if your a student you are more likely to end up in long term welfare then all other groups - why is that? because that is what the media and royals and the churches and these companies want to abuse certain groups to pump out more exposure for the companies, the super tards and druggies and the more they can make 99percent of the population look like freaks and crazy and ugly the better it looks for kate who is extremely plain looking and a lot of famous people who are dull looking and these rich people who even more ugly. my sister said notice how donald trump looks like the angry birds with those brows and cock of weird mad crazy faced peak and hair. and yeh we all laughed cuz it does. donal trump is definately a human verson on the angry birds.

the fact is hormones and dna do change over time and you have to ask yourself all these rich compan...

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the royals have been transgenderizing a lot of victims of child sexual abuse for a long time with secret agents like that slut fat whore from fast forward using comedy to get into the minds of the masses and its all been to cut down the abused families and make fun of their sexual abuse issues and have the nation and world laughing at the victimization and abuse making it funny rather then harmful or serious. and its all a media ploy to abuse generations of people for these famous peoples scams

the royals have been transgenderizing a lot of victims of child sexual abuse for a long time with se...

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i am quite sure all of them are doing insane things and having a huge joke at the tax payers and most peoples expense. the royals and all these people are having a huge laugh at their victims/fans and ripping people off living off their lost bank money or health funds or holiday accounts, the image on top is not the image below. I think there is something weird and creepy about the obamas and how they such up to prince harry and his childish gay responses and obamas jerk compents and these black bastards think they are cool and hip and young and they are full of shit.

i am quite sure all of them are doing insane things and having a huge joke at the tax payers and mos...

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I don't like kate and william and the queen and all the royals because of what they did to me. they are abusive creepy assholes. william is a gay and everybody says kate and diana were really men. I don't care either way they are all still assholes who don't care about anyone but themselves and being scene stealers as they try to punish abuse victims as their little jury and court of satanic occult and transgenderizing the people they abuse and pick on. I have no doubt they are assholes like that. my mum and I and father want nothing to do with my brother and his slut whore wife and their kids. I would not be suprised to find out their daughter was bunnypoeta in portugal and oliva newton john the slut pretend cancer woman which these celebrities love stealing the fame of fake illnesses for more publicity and to once again scene still as their form of punishment to abuse victims like to bully and pick on, as fast forward and australia your standing in it and other soaps like days of our lives and bold and the beautiful tried to do to me. at the hospital a witchcraft person got a worker at the hospital to ask me "do they call you quin?" re the b&b character, I am nothing like that spastic whore and she looks like a valentino/rene white manwoman manchild way that celebs and royals and media rich mogels mongrels go on with , extreme passive but extreme aggressive sly acts over time you wake up and see the games and back biting and fighting and getting involved in other peoples personal abuse issues, which shows how little ugly personalities they are to abuse victims of crime that stand up glorious victors infront of every podium and being invited to parties while the real sick and real poor and the real abused, the real self harmers and real low self esteme people are ignored and pushed around by these people who have to have camera on them 24/7 in the limelight, already you can see the fergie pattern she is sucking up the royals but after all her mistakes how can anyone forgive her, they made made choices in all their marriages because they were all chasing money! and power egos that the lies fall them down anyway.

I don't like kate and william and the queen and all the royals because of what they did to me. they ...

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no one even acknowledged my disabilities til I was too old to get any benefit from it, yet it was as clear as can be but people chose to ignore all my child abuse and emotional issues and self harming. I do blame sarina russo and bowie for a lot. I hate them as much as I hate joyce and shen and lisa and church do-gooder yobos who abused me.

no one even acknowledged my disabilities til I was too old to get any benefit from it, yet it was as...

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sometimes you wish the whole world would get bashed and learn suffering like other disability people. anyone is capabile of being disability rated over time.

sometimes you wish the whole world would get bashed and learn suffering like other disability people...

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the role of a preist or nun or paster is be impartial and not take sides and be judgmental, they are not judges of the court of law anyway. and that was what I didn't like about paster tony that he was judging me for what the pedo got me to do as a child and blaming me and abusing me and like one week I was welcome and by week 4 I was not. and as if his own backyard is clean and he and not one person has any right commenting about my childhood and my being abused and how the pedo died. no one has the right to judge me so as soon as he did I started finding any excuse to insult him because I could tell he is a complete bullshitter liar fraud, he never honors a thing he says and that wife of his is a bikers mole and they look like a pair of retarted dwarf common freeloaders sucking of the church congregation really who are being brainwashed and abused. I shook my head like you expect me to believe this bullshit about I have to do penance for what I did as a child what the pedo got me to do? well why isn't everyone else? and then they started on making me fee ugly and that women only look for stability and not looks in a man and men only want beautiful young wives and it was almost like well your married to god or jesus now and the way you dress and look no man is going to love you and I am thinking well I must be weird cuz I think tony is ugly I couldn't bare him near me, I prefer beautiful looking men and i am a woman and i know some men like older women and then other organisations and groups said I was not to blame as a child, and I could see the game they were playing and my brother and his slut wife and my sister and her slut whore cookie - dad wants to get cookie and squeeze her neck and kill her, and he wants to kill ken. sorry but if people think they can bully me into love you can't. I dump on people who bully at the last chance. and I am not interested in incest relationships, its disgusting! and I am going to punish that spastic whore sadie dog. she is a slut. a spastic devil with those black ugly eyes. and I don't have to like ken. I would prefer anyone but that unreliable unworthy dishonorable scum. I knew I deserved better then him. mum and dad want to kill him. and the churches. they have no time for them at all bullying me.

the role of a preist or nun or paster is be impartial and not take sides and be judgmental, they are...

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