Confessions about 'Pride'

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my older sister is a selfish bitch and my younger brother has been spoilt while I am the forgotten child always in the middle never fitting in anywhere all my life so far. people don't like me for some reason even when I said nothing and was polite to everyone they didn't like me so I just decided to speak more of how I felt and mind and when I am offended and I don't care who I hurt now when I say things- people never cared enough about my feelings or needs, if they had of they would have provided as expected and they failed to provide to me what I needed and wanted. people always give me things too late, ask my feelings or opinion too late, give me things in a very nasty way as if I was putting them out or a bother to expect normal life experiences at the correct given time and anything that is giving is given with a lot of vexation and tantrums and fighting and bickering in family and full of bitter bitching words at me or making fun or just out and out ignoring, I mean if sue has her own lives in 2010 why then did she not have her own life in 2000 and not be a judge in the baby show and have more to do, its all too conveniant that this strumpet slut bullying and even my mother said sue made her feel less of a woman, its too conveniant that bitch turns up living on the islands when the super slut whore deliberately picked the time to move to over shaddow my turn and walk over me and rain on my parade and she was jealous of me to find a husband and have a degree etc. that has to be their satanic acts she had it all plotted that manxy whore. taking never giving. she should have said "no we have our lives I can't be a judge at your shows find someone else" I told the nuns at the church this and a few people... sue is so pointed like the devil I hate her. I never did like sue I have to admit I never liked her as much as other cousins but they all took from me and abused me finding their pathetic excuses to abuse me and gang up on me, and if they only knew my brother and sisters sins and faults and what I have had to tolerate from them. they are not so perfect. and nor are my relatives. they made me and my sister feel like spastics and low confidence when we were kids and made fun of us all the time. i went around boasting up others confidnece speaking nice about them and I would tell more the truth in my own personal private diaries but I never spoke bad about them to others til I found out they had done that to me for all those years and the hate they had for me must have been all consuming to them like that freak horned valentino clown.

my older sister is a selfish bitch and my younger brother has been spoilt while I am the forgotten c...

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I can't see kate middleton clothing is that bad really compared to my waredrop hers is amazing. she had a few gaffs with shots in her topless and skirts wind going up but i mean people tend to be a bit forgiving given the climate was hot there. but overall I can't whats wrong with her clothing style or appearances. I am sick of hearing about most of the royals really and even people who are so in celebrity marrying and flaunting babies and careers and even my relatives and they flaunt flaunt flaunt my cousins and other people around the place. I am sick of my neighbors flaunting and everyone around me flaunting and no I am not happy for them. if they are rude to me they get it back. I am not happy for my cousins slutty daughter kelly I spoke nicely about having a baby, look at what they stole from me! I was nice while they were abusive and rude! every word they said cut me down when I was needing boasting up in my teens and twenties and their savage attacks got worse, so no I am not think "oh isn't it cute" I don't want to hold other peoples babies! or know about how they are. if no one cares about me no one should care about them. I can't see what the whole thing is about the royals are over-rated bitches! bullying every woman - look what they did to me!

I can't see kate middleton clothing is that bad really compared to my waredrop hers is amazing. she ...

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mum said if she was ignored and abused like me she would be rude and abusive and ignorant to a lot of people and she understands why I want nothing to do with relatives who abused me and caused all this to happen to me. mum said she doesn't want to know them if they have done this to me. they should pay she said.

mum said if she was ignored and abused like me she would be rude and abusive and ignorant to a lot o...

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mum said I have a right to jealous and angry about not being allowed a husband and career and children and I should not have been bullied by a lot of people. mum said I have a right to be hurt and angry and as jealous as I want to be, she said she is herself of others for me as well.

mum said I have a right to jealous and angry about not being allowed a husband and career and childr...

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out drugging again tony with your retarted olympic physio slut gays like so what ! that is when I woke up your a meglomanic freak no hoper probably into steroids and drug deals and god only knows to keep the church going.

out drugging again tony with your retarted olympic physio slut gays like so what ! that is when I wo...

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i find it hard to believe that the old pedo bill didn't molest my brother and didn't get him to play sexual touching games with other kids because it was a natural progression of what he did, he did it to my father and roslyn and probably roslyns son first then her daughter and also to my sister and me and there are likely to be other kids he molested. I have no doubt that is the case, and all these teachers of mine, police and so on, and certain relatives who knew did nothing. the counsellors I seen did nothing and never once asked about self abuse, self harm, or if I had been molested or where I got the bruises from. I find it hard to believe they were so blind. it was a plot just against me personaly I am sure a satanic very evil plot and at the top of that dirty plot was rude valintino. the worlds most weird angry showoff man you couldn't work out! sort of like smerky desley or des as i call it but in a dress. mum didn't like desley either she picked up she was a bitch abusing me.

i find it hard to believe that the old pedo bill didn't molest my brother and didn't get him to play...

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I hated both those spastic black haired dogs at bayside family christain church called tina. that dog valentina was an annoying knowall fat cow whore with this big deep knowall tone voice and she was a complete fucking gate crashing scene stealing big titted ugly mole. her boobs and voice felt like an assault in her presence she was supporting joyce against me and I didn't like her at all or the other slut old tina who worked at the gallery she spent the whole time talking about someone called Smackjack and were to be buried, and she spoke rudely to me as if I was talking over the top of her and she was a complete bitchy bully I can see why people don't like her - I said there are a lot of hurting spastic people over there at that losers druggy church with that retard paster tony and his biker whore mole dog and reported them for abuse to a number of places with their pedotalk called god bigdaddy is dirty smut making a whore of the bible! and him calling that ugly witch wife a baby, its been a long time since those creepy witchy couple were babies, a bit long in the tooth if you ask me and super creepy ugly as well. meglomaniac freaks, they are so ugly and germy and abusive i reported them everywhere I could, tony is a complete dickhead no woman but his dog wife would want. I sure wouldn't want that fat grotesque scum I called him a dickhead and he is he has a dickheads personality. he acts like mr kingkong ting tong! bullshit. he loves dobbing others in and making out everyone is a pedo bad ass when its him who is. he is a dirty old man. a disgusting dirty scum and that church is abusing a lot of people. spiritual spew! tony has too big an ego that need pushing down. he has no right as a minister before he has proven his worthiness for the position and I knew they only asked me over their to abuse me and I have been told they are abusive and I am not to listen to the mindbending bible blackmail games they play in peoples minds. I can't wait for the day that church gets ripped for what they are. and I hated lisa she pissed off my mother and me, with her talk about stop asking god for a husband the audacity of that ching chong special assed dog, nothing special about her asshole she does not know suffering and hardship enough. she has a degree, had big jobs, all her kids are rich and clever and their big new house and big new pool and their big new dozen cars and their egos and she was a complete bitch. just because her marriage is hard doesn't mean I will when I get married , just because she found birth hard doesn't mean I will. she should be grateful this country abused women like me to give her ching ass more then me. I have no husband, no degree, no children to flaunt around, no cars to flaunt in, i don't own a house I never had a big important job. never had my ass so far up a churches concave I could have my cunt worshiped like lisa chingbitch! her showing off about how clever all her mongrel kids are. you scene stealing honky whore slut.

I hated both those spastic black haired dogs at bayside family christain church called tina. that do...

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I am angry at the fuckhead who outbid me on a vintage item. if I had a respectable reliable husband like other fat slut bitchy-bullies then they could provide for me. rather then all the senile geriatric loser rapist ken who was not respectful, not what I wanted in a man at all. if someone actually had of asked me in a deep girls conversation what do I want out of life I would have told them all I wanted and not the spastics who have abused me. my mum agrees with this and all the freeloader idiots that have bleed and drained off our family we never wanted to know were annoying like the stupid fergusons, my mother could not stand them at all nor could I and a lot of people.

I am angry at the fuckhead who outbid me on a vintage item. if I had a respectable reliable husband ...

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I am sick of hearing about stupid prince william - this time. worried about the world him and his wife have created for the rest of society, well all I can say the bastards should be grateful they children. they are the ultimate scene and life stealers the royals. I don't have children because of these using cunts. they have their mongrel kids I don't have any children so all I can say is "well you created the world that we are all living in you pair of super bitches!" I hate them both and their breeding games and abuses on a lot of people.

I am sick of hearing about stupid prince william - this time. worried about the world him and his w...

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went out bought my cheap haul of fashion and crashed in bed we walked so long I was so sore and tired and we lost the oats. god. so I am going out again today for more exercise and every day for a few weeks soon if I have the interest to get ready.

went out bought my cheap haul of fashion and crashed in bed we walked so long I was so sore and tir...

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no husband to support me through all this. you wonder why I am angry and want to throw my weight around at people! and want to fight and verbally attack people, people did it to me so I should be able to do it back. I got no sympathy for being sick with anything I have had not like bitch older sister all due to slut joyce the spastic of all living spastics on this earth ever to live. doctors telling me this auto immune disorder and ms and vaginal itch is in my mind, well the specialists dont think so!

no husband to support me through all this. you wonder why I am angry and want to throw my weight aro...

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I am sick of people telling me back pain is going to get worse. I know that back pain has increased in population and I have had back pain on and off now since a teenager I got server sciatica and leg pain for 1 whole winter and I was sleeping on a matres on the floor til we got the bunks and I was in so much pain and that was before the car accident. then after the car accident I got wip-lash and hit my head had sinus infections and blood nose and blood on my forehead and my neck and my leg was hurt and I didn't feel that til about 2hrs after the accident then this massive swelling appeared and I seen 2 gps in one afternoon. someone should have called an ambulance. my mum had to lift my head off the dashboard cuz I was just face planted down and when I came to I just said "am I hurt?" so don't tell me I don't know pain. I have had back pain since 19 when that car accident happened and before when I was 15.

I am sick of people telling me back pain is going to get worse. I know that back pain has increased ...

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and donnas ad in the paper- lonely kinky married woman looking for payed sex work. while husband peter makes a bucket load of money and those tard girls - tiger the twit jumping on that trampoline, I do mean what a trampy = lean of a whore she is, is going to end up with uterus issues and unable to have babies jumping for all these years on an infested bat pissed rat trap of a trampoline fucking on it - disgusting whores.

and donnas ad in the paper- lonely kinky married woman looking for payed sex work. while husband pet...

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dad wouldn't call the council because he is afraid chris brutus the pig will bash him, he won't want to try me, cuz I will bash the bastard, he won't want to confront me because I will yell and do my block at them expecting sick old people to fix a fence their cunts could pay for and fucking stop stealing men from me, or else I will up and bash the son of whore myself. he won't want to take this fat ugly old bitch on. I want to be a fat bombastic argumentative overbearing person who demands respect. I tolerated it from others and now people have to put up with it from me. tough luck whore dog slut bike of birkdale courtney whore! you spastic dog! walk on all fours like the dog you are whore courtney its your fav position for the last 5 years anyway stealing men.

dad wouldn't call the council because he is afraid chris brutus the pig will bash him, he won't want...

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the slut whore next door wrote a letter saying good to see your cleaning up the front yard, keep up the good work. to my mother just because she cut back the plumbaygo scrub. I mean, I just want to say to that spastic whore next door to mind her own business, mum and dad don't like her, my sister does not like her and I don't like her, we don't like them. he acts like a pig in his big truck on drugs and was asking dad what was wrong just because my sister was having one of trantrum mental fits... she is the one that is sick of the smell of the chooks near the kitchen window, and the old woman grandma called shirley waving at her, my sister said "I don't want them looking at me or waving at me, I don't want to know any of them". I just hate our neighbors like dad said "its not the neighborhood it used to be when there was nice people living in the street 20 years ago" donna and her slut whore daughters and courtney have made the street a prostitute hooker whore street, no wonder she got a job working for lj hooker. my dad does not like fat bully brutus chris next door anyway. I don't like her smug superior ways she thinks she is better then everyone in this street wiggling her ass around our house one day and she is annoying. I just want nothing to do with her she is evil satanic and mum said she is going to pretend she knows nothing and for all of us to just play along and like the song momma mia -its a game we play. let the fuckhole cunts they are work it out for themselves. does she love herself working in real estate or what? its not much, they are all con artists and criminals in real estate. she is evil. I knew that woman was trouble like donna from the day they moved into this street. donna and linda expect us to live like slave pigs while they and their daughters stole young men on us. I told a govt offical they were getting their sex male clients to park outside our house while she serviced them. its going too far. then she was getting the kids in the middle of davo and others, and then she writes, "so if you think we don't get along with neighbors think again" she thinks she is so clever then anyone else telling us what questions to think for ourselves rather then just coming over and saying "oh I am sorry the chooks have been messing up your garden and the dog nearly attacked you" to my mum. mum is 76 and this fat man of 30 expects my mother to fix a fence when they are rich enough and got youth on their side to fix it themselves. no one here has a husband to help because they won't let us have husbands cuz they were stealing them on us.

the slut whore next door wrote a letter saying good to see your cleaning up the front yard, keep up ...

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I had to close my mothers bedroom window to stop the smell of marijuana coming in at night and to stop hearing them fucking loudly on trampolines, i mean it makes you feel dirty having to listen to that without even straining this loud sex and giggling, so I shut the windows permanently while I study at night often on IT or health or something.

I had to close my mothers bedroom window to stop the smell of marijuana coming in at night and to st...

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my doctor told me to go and have a way down and read for a while if my back starts aching, often I just have to ignore it and work and walk through the pain, I mean you can't sit at home or lay down when it is painful and appreciate it after you been out but I often just keep working and walking because the pain will be there anyway. its like bad period pain all the time so I don't even notice my period pain unless its really server like a few months back it was and I woke up my mum and said, "ah, am I going to die ?" the pain was so bad. i hate it like yesterday I had migraine and I thought I was going to vomit and the neck aches with it, todays the first day I have been out in a week since the surgery because everytime I got up it just started bleeding again. and I had to postpone my back/brain surgeon appt cuz I just can not afford all these surgical procedures at once and I pay top cover hospital with top extras and they won't cover a surgical procedure with the gyno for byopsies or my back surgeon. my cat gets more paid for them on his pet insurance then I do on my health fund. I added obstretrics incase I do have a baby. - as if- a mirical would have to happen! I am so ugly and old and so worried about my health. I want a baby desperately and marriage to feel normal. its just so immoral that people have kids and don't appreciate it and here is me I want children and marriage and I want to work part-time. I just don't need russo nazi agression bullying over work.

my doctor told me to go and have a way down and read for a while if my back starts aching, often I ...

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we have all had cancer and surgery and illnesses here and there is no wage coming in this house other then pensions and no fit man to clean things while they next door have 2 wages coming in have cars and she roots around like whore with other men, like a jezabell whore without any consideration for any single women here. my sisters husband is in the filipenas having surgery for piles and stomach boils and he was forced to look after his sick father and all this family have abused him, my sister and him deserve their time together after all they have been through he is a filipena good man my sister tells me, with a daughter and I have begged the govt to allow him here my sister to be with him, he has graduated and worked on a bike and looking after his sick father and as a political minder in filipenas and she said he is the love her life and she will not let him go for anything. he is a black man and its her choice. I need a husband myself but I don't want a black man, I want a white husband, I always thought I would marry an academic or professional and he would be my prince charming, might not be everyones idea of that but he will be my idea of that. I wanted a career and children and house of my own and better health, I always looked after my health and its only because no one would give my mother or father a job we have been poor I can't afford a car and pretty hair to attract a man, I also have been black listed for a long time, I used to wonder why I went to so many legal and hospital jobs and knocked back, so did my father he wondered why he was knocked back from work. it has dinted his pride and mine also. just like not finding a husband has mentally effected me and I am sick of being told that because I am ill with a back injury and overweight or what men won't want me, or that i am not good enough for a white man or professional man. I study a lot. I could have graduated from 1 degree I decided not to if I couldn't complete law due to being bashed so much and illness I didnt want to graduate and look beaten down by everything but joyce wanted me to have nothing. she said that so much. I don't know why she could not bare to see me with a handsome young man the way david gave my sister a beautiful wedding and child when she was young. I had the same right as everyone to have that as well. I want a church wedding and its mentally effected me deeply. the scars are deep and pain probably cant be completely repaired that joyce and russo created! I should have had the right to have an advocate on my side like everyone else in the family who was helped to marry.

we have all had cancer and surgery and illnesses here and there is no wage coming in this house othe...

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people next door dancing paganistic satanic dances around bon fires and attacting a man and attacking possums and they were going on about hate of cats and possums and certain animals, teaching the children to hate innocent cuddly animals.

people next door dancing paganistic satanic dances around bon fires and attacting a man and attackin...

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whore next door wrote a letter about my mum and I complaining to counsel about the chooks in our yard and the savage dog near attacked my mother and the whore next door thinks her neighbors get on with her, my father only looks that way because he is dead terrified of her gorillar brutus the rhino coming over bashing him. he won't want to try me, because i will call police and scream him down and up and bash him myself. no man wants to take this angry fat mongrel bitch on or I will go them! so whore next door has another think coming! her arse wiggling whoring mentality and her real estate go-getter rob your grandma act won't work here, that slut has been trying to make out I am crazy for ages and my mum and dad have woken up to her little fiasco, that strumpet whore! I hate her and never did like her, her rich husband who is younger then me and fat can build the fence - we are poor pensions who have all had cancer and surgery and she and her gorillar won't want to start with me. I am wake up to this manxy whore! my parents don't like them at all.

whore next door wrote a letter about my mum and I complaining to counsel about the chooks in our yar...

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