Confessions about 'Pride'

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I am not forgiving! I don't have to forgive anyone! my therapist said I don't have to forgive others.

I am not forgiving! I don't have to forgive anyone! my therapist said I don't have to forgive others...

Pride

can you see evryone helps bully bitch bombastic kelly with her thick glasses n dwarfism n smug sneaky nasty vendictive bitchy ways because she has obvious disability n she's a complete over-rated bullying bitch n not this sweetie she pretends to be for choir. thats why she always wins cause she has a team of bullies she goes after guys n goes back to her hero garry its a way of life fro her, she is mean cruel bitchy n demanding tries to dictate to her friends she uses to take her on to the next male conquest and she knows n likes to win expects to win with an extremely entitled mentality about her disabilities being adorable but she is a complete bitch who is a husband basher to every man she is with. she has a lot of anger in her she takes out on women like me and her an antia have some club thing going of games and hijix - kelly sp is very sneaky cunning and there is nothing adoreable or nice or wise about her. she is a bitchy bully. she thinks she is cleverer then everyone else but she is too retarted to see she is actually not but she wins because she looks pathetic and people laugh and she gets what she wants by her bullying and group of bullies help her. like elf dumb retarted gordon powers. he is so spastic, and margie is dangerious - I could tell she did not like me and they didn't want me in choir.

can you see evryone helps bully bitch bombastic kelly with her thick glasses n dwarfism n smug sneak...

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i loved those club scenes on agatha christies movies and I think, I must have been born in the wrong era, or the old movies and there was something much more romantic about their 1920s etc club scenes in gatsby and other old films or victorian and edwardian style movies.

i loved those club scenes on agatha christies movies and I think, I must have been born in the wrong...

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when I pay for my parents to come on a cruise with me I am taking them to a night club in the ship see if they can handle it, if I can for that matter, I really like cabert and swing and jazz mixture of music and some classical and just a cocktail or tea/coffee thing but I would take them to try a neon light disco I seen some aged people in one on cruise having a great time. if we don't like it we can leave and find some other thing. sometimes I like nightclubs but I don't do them much I always felt fearful going in and get nervous cuz of the smell of alcohol and guys get so drunk and you want to dance and meet some guys sure but that is why I like the smooth 1920s style clubs and music as well because I like variety! I can go from place to another.

when I pay for my parents to come on a cruise with me I am taking them to a night club in the ship s...

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to me a party is like formal or informal, dance or just conversational some people need horses prods and horse brand stick to push them to let them know when to speak to other people they so dumb.

to me a party is like formal or informal, dance or just conversational some people need horses prods...

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stupid spastic leigh m of the rsl quest didn't know me as a person and I and the hospital and a number of people I have spoken to said leigh m was the one who wronged me that night and she should have not done what she did, it was a revenge act on her behalf due to a husband who left her for another woman. she didn't like me, she gave me all this advice to stay away from rick and katey and what to wear and yet she was pushing mostly of us younger single women with old farts who were boring and a dead loss to us. I mean, one of my friends said her attitude was probably "I'll sort this one out " so she felt free to get a shag and not have to concern herself with how I got home and I didn't want to go to the weird event, no one talked to each other, she pointed at a dozen men at me like which ones do you think are okish, and I was like I don't know, none of them really and out of politeness I said "oh there is a few over there ok and yeh I guess he is sort of ok and I am think but not my type seriously" i am just saying any to shut you up and lets just get out of here its been the most boring night ever, no one talks to each other, no dancing, no buffet foods, it was weird, then she was like wanting to push me with a few and then focused on one and I was like "i'll say anything to be polite but its no invitation or anything" I don't know why she didn't say "look you have had a bit to drink on medication I will take you home or I will call a cab and they can pay for it, you are not safe with these guys!" I wanted to go out with better men, other women always try this game on me. I don't understand it. I wanted to get to know someone for a few weeks and dates before sex and it was not what i wanted what leigh m pushed on me. I really think its not acceptable to do what she did. its immoral, and she probably found it hard to believe I was a virgin at 29 but she should have asked me in a un-abusive way had I had a serious boyfriend before or had sex or what sort of man was I looking for, like the man of my dreams which that guy didn't fit anyway. joyce did similar her little childish games abusing her clients sexually and other things was immoral and trying to push me to some old bugger of 70 was just beyond it. I couldn't believe he out and out put me on the spot wanting sex just for him driving me home, like you have to be joking! she should have said get a cab home. she had weirdo friends.

stupid spastic leigh m of the rsl quest didn't know me as a person and I and the hospital and a numb...

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if you want to see a performer go to born again dumb churches, this pregnant retarted married whore bowing and scrapping at the alter and acting stupidly morbidly intoxicated with god or guilt or whatever, I mean they go on about "oh I am so unworthy to even say his name the lord, or dare I set foot in the lords house! and think myself worthy" I said well in that case why bother coming to this rubbish at the catholic jail monastery then. I can't relate to this rubbish! I am just human.

if you want to see a performer go to born again dumb churches, this pregnant retarted married whore ...

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I used to steal to feed my drug addiction. If you have a side door on your garage, or an older car, make sure you lock it. I swear at least 50% of people in middle to upper middle class neighborhoods leave shit unlocked.

I used to steal to feed my drug addiction. If you have a side door on your garage, or an older car, ...

Pride, Stealing

youtube has breed a lot of self loving narcissistic posing people who look at themselves in camera in awe of themselves, they fall inlove with their own self image and reflection, its rather un-natural to see these dumb people doing stupid so called sexual pouts and poses that look for the lack of a better word - "spastic" !

youtube has breed a lot of self loving narcissistic posing people who look at themselves in camera i...

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men are lazy, todays man is a lazy pitiful example of whatnot! years ago they had to arrange meetings and ask the parents of the women for a meeting and they have a debutante event and they would both check for mutual affections today, people are like animals. the world is stupid! people don't talk and communicate normally anymore. maybe I watched too many regency romance and expected men be decent and treat women better. I just think the world is mad mad mad. I just want to fit in somewhere. I am sick of this I really could murder someone. I am sick of stepping aside for "fuckers" women and men "fuckers" useless at anything else but fucking wasting my time and useless to society and I think I need to copy some of the deathly killing types I met and just go around doing it back to everyone I can get my hands on!

men are lazy, todays man is a lazy pitiful example of whatnot! years ago they had to arrange meeting...

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i don't care what the bastards do behind closed doors, we turn a blind eye to that just like people did to me as a child no one was listening to me as a child. but i don't want it shoved in my face about poofters kissing and shagging and general covorting and exhibitionism I don't want, the sight of gays kissing sicked me back in 2000 and I used to be more fair minded but seeing people are not with me I have changed and become the harsh harsh harsh harsh person joyce poorter said I was- i didn't think i was back then but since i have been neglected and ignored more the more I have hate for anyone having any fun or enjoyment or love or flaunting! and I certaintly don't want poofters and lesdogs around me kissing, i was assaulted by a bi sexual nutcase who plays games on people who I hope she gets whats coming to her fair in the face! I dont welcome just any peoples - sorry but that person long went when people turned their back on me ! they know who they are. i find gay love dirty, I find that there is way too much sex on tv especially indian and black culture films is filled with sexual debortary and they just are not as civilized as us and it should never been white mans burden to make them think or live white! especially at the expense of our own!

i don't care what the bastards do behind closed doors, we turn a blind eye to that just like people ...

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let me blunt as possible back to bill shorten- I spent 15 years of my childhood forced to do and be someone I didn't want to be being molested - some people tell me It doesn't hurt me! - people having to live pretend lives is just part of life, and you get on with life and stop the soppy talk because believe me orgasms and love is not going to sovle the nations problems for disability hetrosexual abused women like me. I want a husband and I it means I will have to look further and look for younger hetros as most of the old men are gay now days without jobs they feel as gay as a fantale floating in the sewer but my attitude is like how people said about my abuse. "I can't do anything about it" "I don't know how to help catherine" - I too don't know how to help others now and I don't want to help gay fag losers and see a world of dirty smut rich gays breeding hybrids while hetrosexuals will be once again denegrated, its alright for you married whores in parliment with your degrees and jobs and flaunting your wealth and thinking your better then everyone else like you don't sit down to shit like the rest of us. you bombasticly walk over nicer modest genteel feminine women like me, but no I don't support poofters and lesdogs marrying. they are un-natural and unequal. what about disability single white trash women in australia who were sexually abused and no one could be bothered helping or having a vote or blebisite about our rights and changes so our lives can be improved and counted and allowed to marry hetrosexually and have jobs and cars and homes and children and degrees. i mean this whole thing is a joke. I won't support anybody enjoying life and people having fun! if I can't why should anyone else. if I can be labelled weirdo for being a victim of sexual abuse as a child then so can everyone else! compulsary voting is right. and media or public life like movies and music people should not be in parliment and its not a pop show!

let me blunt as possible back to bill shorten- I spent 15 years of my childhood forced to do and be ...

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I admit if I had been the queen i would have hit most of her kids over the head! they did some dumb things in their marriages that makes no sense to anyone! however I do agree with charles, "whatever the god dam mules on this earth love means?" load of rubbish! i mean "load of rubbish get on with ya work" like brick in the wall teacher is how I see all that nonsense! people don't DO love anymore! mum is right nothing makes sense about social media and no wonder people are mental now. the world is getting stupider that is when you know you are getting old when you know you don't understand and fit in and just don't bloody care anymore. but I don't have to do sexual or love things with people I don't like anymore. I might have been fooled once by rick and joyce and ken and russel and relatives and I don't have to anymore. I don't have to forgive!

I admit if I had been the queen i would have hit most of her kids over the head! they did some dumb...

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i never said I was perfect I have made mistakes, I trusted the wrong people, I was gullible and I got angry a lot in private and self harmed, I sexually mutialed my own genitals for being such a dog cow ugly child to let that dirty old drunk near me, i used to swear and copy him I still swear when I am angry and I have to stop myself often. I want sex from someone I love because I am sick of giving sex to people i hate and don't love, which is what the pedo made me do and I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to be wiser. I did silly things like everyone does, came home late a few times I shouldn't have, ran away and came back, stole once or twice to get attention as a little child, or I just liked the flower and wanted it. It took me a while to learn to appreciate things rather then needed to control them or own them as a child. I wanted to pretty and loved as a teen, I went through a craving to have a baby as a teen and grew out of it cuz i was so ugly no boys would date me and i threw myself into what study i could cope with, I dropped out and failed as much as i have succeeded without a doubt. I have said things I wish I had not. I made choices I wish I had not, mostly on dumb peoples advice oddly enough. I was dumb enough to trust their dumb mentally ill advice til I found out it was not all they were making out. I have thrown things and the worst was when I threw a cushion at my cat for peeing on me on the bed and a few weeks later she had back issues and I felt so guilty. its like the time I got angry at one of my cats she wouldn't move off the dining table and a few days later we found out she had cancer and I felt so guilty. and another cat I went to wash him off and hose water from being in the hot sun the water came out too hot and burnt him and he got urinarian tract infection and died, I felt so guilty and blamed myself like i had to be the one that bought home swine flu and i left the towel on the wet floor to mop up a slip and my grandfather fell over lucky he didn't break anything but I felt so guilty I really didn't think he would walk around there, I made a few mistakes at work cutting a few corners to do jobs quick, I struggled to pay bills and got drunk as a 1 pot screamer its not half easy so I just gave up alcohol completely. I told my sister I am not enjoying the passionpop anymore it makes me sick, and i had a sweet sherry in a small glass one night got sick and never again! I drank at an office party and I knew not one guy gave a shit about me that I liked. all these idiots followed me around who were just dull annoying yobos and I never liked military men or people at all. I just don't really like the whole rambo non-sense they go on with.

i never said I was perfect I have made mistakes, I trusted the wrong people, I was gullible and I go...

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i told her it was me who rang the police last year. fuck her slut.

Pride

i am going to ring up that bitch and tell her off and get my lawyer and doctor to dam well go her! that spastic dirty dutch dog joyce.

i am going to ring up that bitch and tell her off and get my lawyer and doctor to dam well go her! t...

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I am sick of people using me. I deserve to be treated better then this. sometimes I feel like bashing that message into a few people. I don't like violence but I am sick of being ignored, abused, lied about, not getting the love and attentions and affections of friends and men I need, and sick of weirdos annoying me and just want them to fuck off and die. I hope everyone who abused me dies this year. i deserve more out of life. soon if things don't improve i am going to ring joyce up and abuse the hell out of that slut and yell at her and tell her i am going to take her to court she got too far and she needs a good bashing up! a woman who is provacative who should have been killed years ago - I don't know how someone hasn't killed her because she ruined a lot of lives and causes trouble to all her clients sooner or later they regret being near her. she has the weirdest concept of social justice and monetry justice and to win her favour she has a bizzar criteria I seen her do that at the baby shows with kids - she let it be known if she didn't like certain children, but she is so judgemental and everyone has to fit into her categories and if you don't she disguards you as useless and lazy and stupid. she has not got the answer for her own spastic life. spastic simple retarted dog little dumb woman joyce is, a spastic little dull dog woman I would love to kick her face in for her, that witchy lolitta widdle girl multiple personality disorder cluster b and more mental whore joyce is.

I am sick of people using me. I deserve to be treated better then this. sometimes I feel like bashin...

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I have a love hate relationship with university. I loved it and hated it. I was lonely, sad, depressed, shy, shut in or closed in as a person, bullied rappantly by teachers, admin staff and class groups, I didn't fit in, I had panic attacks the whole time which often I started skipping tutorials and just going to lectures, huge lecture halls then the panic attacks started there as well after a person attacked me one day while going to university I just was having a quiet little nervous breakdown and no one noticed, no one cared, I don't think I was ever missed, and then when I went to get help I met the wrong person completely who bullied me more, joyce. my sister was bullying me, my friends were, my mum and dad were, my brother was, all my outter distant relatives like aunts, uncles, cousins etc all hated me. I didn't have good friends network that was the worst part, there was no network that stuck by me through thick and thin, I stood by a lot of people in thick and thin and later regreted it. when I needed things no one was there for me.

I have a love hate relationship with university. I loved it and hated it. I was lonely, sad, depress...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I actually want to travel to find a man from overseas to marry cuz all of them here are a complete bloody useless waste of space deadpan wankers poofters, I am against gay marriage and I don't apologise for it, god didn't intent it and wait til wounded men want gay divorces and accuse men of rape and battery and forcing them into marriage etc. I am against gay marriage because it just makes it harder for women like me to find a husband. I mean you would swear I was the most vial woman in this town and I think I would be one of the more sexually moral and shy and modest women, I got up to a little silly things but I mean I really truely resent the way men have treated me here. I resent being ignored as a teen the way I was when young men SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASKING ME OUT BETTER MEN THAN WHAT WAS PUT ON DISPLAY FOR ME IN MY TEENS. i resent the way the churches have been towards me and a lot of people. I don't support gay marriage at all. I live at home because I have no husband, no man will get off his hole to know me, and the losers I have really liked who have don't put in enough effort, the losers I hated dragged me down to hell and it was hard to get rid of them to say "just fuck off" the better guys ignored me, I expected a man to buy me jewellery and take me out often. no man so far has lived up to my expectations, only a few have gone close and they seem to be ones that I never get sexual with, others I am glad I never got sexual with and one germ user nutcase ken I regret completely getting sexual with. while the men I like other people ruin it for me. I don't want to be around stupid people anymore. I know it might sound awful but I don't want to be around disability spastic abusive people anymore. I know even before I was in the car accident people seen me as spastic and more so after the car accident I was seen as a pathetic thing!

I actually want to travel to find a man from overseas to marry cuz all of them here are a complete b...

Pride, Abuse

So sorry for being so arrogent when talking about my qualifications to those who are lower than me, while feeling annoyed for those who are higher than me. I am such an comparing idiot! Buddha please forgive me and help me out of these situations!

So sorry for being so arrogent when talking about my qualifications to those who are lower than me, ...

Pride, Hate