Confessions about 'Pride'

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I just heard a creepy motorbike noise like it was sneaking slowly down the road and that freaks me out. we have had so many break and enters around here and freaky weird things. people stalking around teens doing evil things to my family and one night a guy was in our yard and my mum seen him and called us down stairs that she seen a man in our yard hiding behind a tree and when we went up stairs cuz the door down stairs was open and I got my mum to come back down into the rumpus room and all the pillow stuffing was over the floor as if someone had knifed the cushions and it didn't make sense because the dogs were there and you would think they would have barked so we thought maybe the dogs did scratched it out but like in that short time ?? like less then five minutes after we left? and the strange thing was another night a man came into our garage and even walked past the dog and it didn't even bark and my brother and his mate were playing on the computer and they got such a fright to see a complete stranger there. there has been nights someone broke in and opened my bedroom door and this night I made my brother sleep on the floor and later he went down stairs and the back door was open and the next day you could see that the door knob has actually been unscrewed and removed off and it was so scary we got new locks and the police to replace all the locks, I have to say I have never felt safe in this house. its spooky right from day 1 over 25 years ago and it has bought suffering and disappointment and like a bad omen to me like some ghost not allowing me to find love. that is creepy.

I just heard a creepy motorbike noise like it was sneaking slowly down the road and that freaks me o...

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this is something I don't understand with some women right. one day I was at the bus stop feeling sorry for myself after yet another job knock back and diagnosis of skin cancer and this old woman of about 67 came over to sit near me and said "how are you" and usually I would fake a positive outlook and say "oh yeh I am fine lalala" but I didn't this time and said "well actually I am feeling really hurt right now, I missed out on a job I put a lot of work into trying to get, i have skin cancer and no man and being called fat and ugly by relatives and I have no friends" and she told me "oh I am so like you, I don't have a man either but I get on with life" then proceeded to tell me she had been married 3 times and had 6 kids and 10 grandchildren and had owned a business etc, nothing like me at all. I never been married once never held down a full time job for long and can't find a man to save myself, I have no kids and I thought you are trying to make out you are like me? and she said "oh well I will be your friend" and never spoke to me ever again and infact has ignored me as if we never met other women have done that to me as well acted later as if we have never met. how neglecte they are yet have husbands and lovely weddings and kids and I used to look in the mirror and think "why is it never me asked out should I do all the asking and pursuing and pretentory characters of a shewolf or something?" why has it always been I have to compete for a mans love? why can't they just choose me first and only me! I see a lot of guys I would ask out and they would be literally my world but they just ignore me and treat me like a doormat and I don't know why when I am a very giving caring person. people have said things to me I never once would have and now I feel so hurt I say them to others why be alone in the hurt when you can share it around?

this is something I don't understand with some women right. one day I was at the bus stop feeling so...

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I simply can't relate to girls who say they are in love with their father or brother or uncle and having incest relationships. I think something is seriously amiss with them and its illegal. sorry saddie kitty but your joke is rather sick.

I simply can't relate to girls who say they are in love with their father or brother or uncle and ha...

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I admit I am not good at a lot of things anymore because I don't read the detail in things much anymore. I often tear up letters and don't read them from people. I answer just anything to tests because its all become a huge joke to me now. I look so deliberately helpless and depandant on parents due to sarina russo and joyce poorter abuse. people sticking their buttholes into my personal business in my childhood when their own childhood is dirtier then mine is actually a joke!

I admit I am not good at a lot of things anymore because I don't read the detail in things much anym...

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I am not responsible for emma at all. I did nothing to her. she is the bully in a powerful job walking over people and dictating and acting like some nazi king kong. dog woman.

I am not responsible for emma at all. I did nothing to her. she is the bully in a powerful job walki...

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i'm angry at my health fund they do nothing much dont cover enough and these doctors are making money and the health funds while the poor are being just ripped off. I am sick of the way I get treated. the system is unfair.

i'm angry at my health fund they do nothing much dont cover enough and these doctors are making mone...

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i don't know why anna send me a message to my mock linkedin account I set up just for a IT course project. yet she doesn't want to ring me on my home number, I don't see the point in us talking anymore anyway. I don't care how life has gone for her really I wish her well but I don't want to know because she messed things up for me.

i don't know why anna send me a message to my mock linkedin account I set up just for a IT course pr...

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i need to know do you feel guilty enough yet! so guilty you can't face people and have twitches and weird mannerisms, and terrets sydrome yet like you did to me as a teenager ! i want to see it for myself that you have got back what you did to me and others! and how you always needed to go through other peoples books and bags and rubbish looking in the secrets in their minds eye what they thought was going on around then and speculating or dreams and nightmares and the way you needed to live them out I sure hope that all comes back to you all! guilt is not an easy thing to live with said irene the perfect guilt barer mother confessor bitch with all her little dirty secrets and games.

i need to know do you feel guilty enough yet! so guilty you can't face people and have twitches and ...

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I met a really nice man last year and it was in a business situation and I felt like I could not break protocol to flirt or ask him out. I find it hard in business situations to just change mode of character yet a lot of my friends years ago who often get dates this way and I wondered how they did it because no men ever did that with me or ask me out on dates like that. so I tend to always remain stayed and not break social protocols. maybe I should but it doesn't come easy to me.

I met a really nice man last year and it was in a business situation and I felt like I could not bre...

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the last time I saw ricky the singer he was looking so tired and he gave this other south american guy came over to me as well that was a strange night. I was so dumb and numb I wish I had not have said I had a boyfriend when I didn't, he was nice. I seen jason the signer a few times looking so sad and he would touch me on the hand and I felt embarased because I begged him to call me cuz I was so down and never did, like most of the law office guys i worked with they would promise to meet up and then go drinking with their mates instead. that was hurtful.

the last time I saw ricky the singer he was looking so tired and he gave this other south american g...

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ricky is lucky he has two beautiful sons and kate loves flaunting her kids as if she is the only woman who can produce them and unless your exactly like her you can't have kids - they are the modern day family that looks rather awquard to me, so when do the rest of us get a fair go to have children and loving marriages and lifestyles we feel apeased in?

ricky is lucky he has two beautiful sons and kate loves flaunting her kids as if she is the only wom...

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i have a headache, my mother is selfish she is happy with me being her little companion running around with her photoing but does she think about what would make me feel happy? she says she does want me to find a man but then why has she ruined so many opportunties for me? she agrees with me and the therapists that ken was all wrong for me, and I deserved to be treated better and have a better man then him. she just seems to want me to be like a child forever. she didn't help me find a man when I was younger like I see other mothers do, she is so lazy as a mother like that. she is not thinking of how I will cope when she dies or how lonely and unloved I feel needing a husband all these years as if this is normal to sleep in your mothers bed at 45. I don't even have a bedroom of my own nor does my older sister who sleeps on a couch futon I bought. she won't use the bed I bought. am I in the twilight zone here? how can people think this is all normal? joyce didn't know what the fuck hell she was doing cuz if she had of my life would have worked out right. I am only a failure all due to her dumb advice and bullshit. she had no idea what the fuck hell that spastic lunitic whore was doing. she was spastic. she is spastic. she didn't have the answers to her own life! she was sucking off vulnerable people. she never consered herself with what I wanted. no one at russos asked me "and what do you want out of a career and life ?" they had made up their mind to push me off to disability after they abused me into a disabled state!

i have a headache, my mother is selfish she is happy with me being her little companion running arou...

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dr wang at wello- don't worry about study or a clean house or a marriage or a career or a car or a holiday, just keep going out shopping! was his advice! why would I want a husband if I don't have a degree only women who have degree and have slanty eyes have important assholes not white trash women who are abused ! what fucking advice is that of a stupid fucking doctor! fucking sick bastard made me ill. that bastard tried to kill me, the son of a slut. "you leave all the worry up to my clever superior asian male brain white trash woman"... ok! fix everything you fucked up on me then! kingccunt!

dr wang at wello- don't worry about study or a clean house or a marriage or a career or a car or a h...

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why is the world full of slogans and yet no one lives by most of them. life is not a slogan.

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sally from nutrijunk was saying to me, "stop trying to be interesting and be interested in others" that is all I have ever done all my life, helped others get what they want, removed myself away so other whores could get cock and glory, see others loved and happy in careers etc, whose been interested in me and helping me? no one! besides, she is the one who has been married a dozen times not me. she could give up hunting and give other women a go, as my doctor told me to tell her.

sally from nutrijunk was saying to me, "stop trying to be interesting and be interested in others" t...

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I seen this really good looking you guy the other day in the city and I always wanted a man like him. I wished I was young again. I looked at him because he was just so exhaustingly good looking then gone. I wish men like that would talk to me. I dont know how to make them notice me. I never did know and got all the old men of 70 and it never made sense to me cuz I really liked men around my age and a bit younger. was I that ugly they couldn't have confidence to flirt and ask me out? why don't men do that anymore with women? It has been years since a nice man genuinly flirted with me.

I seen this really good looking you guy the other day in the city and I always wanted a man like him...

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I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want to understand what I am going through. I try so hard to put on a pretence of fake jolliness but I often sit crying alone in my room just wish someone would hug me. I never live up to what people want and they just walk over me too much. I feel so down and depressed and only a doctor or a woman going through this can understand. I wish there were support groups locally. I know people think its stupid but it is a real physical and psychological thing for me, I feel almost psychotic and paranoia and like everyone hates me and I have no friends. all my friends disappoint me deliberately so I guess I should learn to do that back more to people right. stop being the one that makes things good and ok for those who don't give a shit about me, like the choirs and churches and poeple like kelly and sally who just use and walk over me because I am so nice... oh they are so needing more then me, how dare I put my feelings and needs first! well sorry but I have to bitches!.

I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want ...

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i don't understand why doctors and ambulance and nurses were so abusive towards me. I did nothing to them, they should take their shit out on someone their own size !!! and stop bullying patients. it was an insult and you don't expect to be abused verbally by medical ambulance it is unacceptable rudeness. I wouldn't even say those thing in a job. I have never been so insulted the way they said "stop worry about your cat if you choose to die cats look after themselves" I was offended their rudness I could have bashed that son of a whore ambulance wanker his mother his a whore for producing trash like him into this world and he was ugly too he thought he was hot but he was rather ugly and a real fob danny! dannies are the lowest of shit cuz they pounce around and live off women like giggilos

i don't understand why doctors and ambulance and nurses were so abusive towards me. I did nothing to...

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this fat bombastic abusive ugly indian whore who was bullying me with her shit, talking down at me, laughing and saying treatment the specialist gave me would not work and not explaining things and I was client. she had a duty to me and she was acting stupid. I wondered if she knew that adel from iran on make friends.com who was stalking me with bullshit saying I eat too much and need to be vegan and all this rubbish. he was an idiot.

this fat bombastic abusive ugly indian whore who was bullying me with her shit, talking down at me, ...

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i am sick of having to see everyone having everything I need and want. I am sick of going without and I am sick of being made to feel ugly by everyone and unworthy. its gone too far ages ago. dr yana was abusing me she was the one causing me distress and yet she was saying rubbish like i was causing her stress - my therapist laughed and said she is nuts and should give up her job then. I am starting to hate all black niggar bums. I think they ruin white womens love lives deliberately out of jealousy and need to be stopped.

i am sick of having to see everyone having everything I need and want. I am sick of going without an...

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