Confessions about 'Pride'

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i had to dob this mongrel kid into police for stalking me and he was getting in the way of me meeting men my own age and the men I liked - russel did much the same thing to me as well, pushing off any competition he could men that I liked and prefered the company of, and then he was going around saying stupid things. these guys are idiots. I wanted to be married to a lawyer because I was studying law or married to a doctor or someone with more class and style then this 14 year old child called lauchylee or russell. its a bloody insult. how do these people have the audacity? russel was kicked out of the army for dishonorable discharge and i know what he did, its all been a bunch of lies that mongrel shit in my life and other losers like ken. seriously I do deserve better company! and don't you forget it!

i had to dob this mongrel kid into police for stalking me and he was getting in the way of me meetin...

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never be afraid to ask surgeons and therapists and other services and professional like vets, how many success rates do they have how many procedures have they done successfully. you have a right to ask and know their skill.

never be afraid to ask surgeons and therapists and other services and professional like vets, how ma...

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my persian cat moshi (maroushhka) is exploring around today, she was very put out about the ragdoll snug being on her bed!

my persian cat moshi (maroushhka) is exploring around today, she was very put out about the ragdoll ...

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some people are just born bad and joyce and bowie were extremely abusive towards me, I have nothing good to say about them they basicly steal lives. they stole my life from me, they stole my future, they stole my past even. she needed to be pitied so she even stole my abuse issues and its all lies because how can a woman have a phobia disorder suddenly heal to do what this liar multiple personality disordered mental case joyce was doing, her bisexual lifestyle and weird marriage, her need to marry with witches broom sticks sound very satanic occult to me and un-natural. she was always poisoning all her clients marriages and families wanting to break up as many families and marriages as she could, breaking up careers and education, she wanted her clients with nothing. all the black ones were allowed be princesses but the ones like me who were going to university she wanted in the gutter and you can clearly see that woman has no morals and makes no sense. a raving ratbag looneybin. a pedophile protector and aider and abetting a pedo and more. never helping me as a victim of a pedo or assault, which tells you how mentally ill this woman is. my doctor has said out right she is a crack pot, and he is glad I reported her for abuse. it takes a lot of courage to report people in power who are abusive- this woman literally killed off my lovelife, and my human rights and my seed! my right to bear children and be an educated woman that is what angers my doctor so much about this woman, most of her clients never get better to have love or marriage because she is so jealous of them, you would think it should be the opposite that she would want them to be succesful and married to someone they love etc rather then raped. you would think she would want them to have education and go on to success to prove her ability and success record which doesn't look that good at all. with her insults and satanic abuse and her verbal violence week in and week out how could you get better, to fit into her critera of "the worthy" you had to be either dirt poor or thilthy rich and not much inbetween, she has the weirdest concept of right and wrong and needing to teach lessons all the time must be so draining on her and its not therapy my doctor said its just not normal behavior at all.

some people are just born bad and joyce and bowie were extremely abusive towards me, I have nothing ...

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I have had bird flu, swine flu working at the doctor's surgery and a bat peed on me from work when i was doing research work with a research company so I was told volunteering at the hospital might not be good for me if I have health issues or emotional issues and a nice office job or retail or hospital pharmacy would be better for me or something completely different. I have had a lot of illness these weird viruses making me ill and people doing witchcraft satanic abuse on me. I know some people don't want to believe its true and I can't talk about the mastoid and middle ear and heart issues and thankfully the surgery in the vaginal area was not as bad around the eardrum being cut open and all the blood that fell into the roof of my mouth. I know someone was trying to kill me. I didn't feel a thing from the anastetic til I got home. i never felt the needle in my ear but later that night I was sluring my words and ambulance said it might have been anasethic and but the heart pain was outrageous. I knew my heart was slowing down so many times and it is painful, when my grandfather died I had a lung thing and when i was working at the pharmacy I had to work when really sick and not one asshole has bothered to think of my romantic or sexual or social and financial or health needs.

I have had bird flu, swine flu working at the doctor's surgery and a bat peed on me from work when i...

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ginger nut and tea for breakfast cuz I am so ill in the stomach. last night I just had a cup a soup cuz it was all I could handle with this bug.

ginger nut and tea for breakfast cuz I am so ill in the stomach. last night I just had a cup a soup ...

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I just take my valium and that is how I cope with life and loneliness. I was never keen on alcohol and the doctors know what they are doing with my medications so I have to trust them.

I just take my valium and that is how I cope with life and loneliness. I was never keen on alcohol a...

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I have a tendancy to swear when I am super angery at everything, like I bottle it up for ages then I do a complete dumbie spit with life in everyway, like its "I want to through in this job, I am sick of study, f this and f that I nearly got run over due to this stupid b! giving me cheek who should know better. I can really express it at times. I don't feel bad being passionate about somethings and expressing myself rather then holding it all in, other times, I just hold everything in like after I was bashed or raped and I never expressed a feeling til I got home and cried alone and ranted and raved. like it took over 2 hours to get home before I told someone I was bashed or raped etc. it took years before I told an outside family member I was raped or molested, i held all that in for so long, covering it up for so long and I must have covered it up pretty well. I can't believe not one teacher didn't pick up something was not right the bruises from him hitting me or burn marks, the other things, the bed wetting and nightmares the sleep paralysis and night terrors and traumas I still go through and insomnia at times. the wacky creative rapid bouts and manic moments of love that disipates to zero nothing ...??? the stiff upper lip infront of everyone then behind closed doors a sigh and shrug off the world behind and scream now n then,

I have a tendancy to swear when I am super angery at everything, like I bottle it up for ages then I...

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i have pain again. hope it eases up. fuk it. where is some relief from this boring existence?

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my grandmother used to rant and rave for hours piss drunk every night and my dad does it as well. mumbling and yelling away to himself my grandmother would bow at my grandfather and say "there is your dinner sir!" but it was said like sa! really sacasticly and moody. then she would bow like a japanese servant at everyone. and she would start "that bloody bee, .... that bloody bee," then it would be "dear little robbie, robbie robbie robbie" then it would be the opposite, then it was like "those two bloody girls won't do a thing bloody mongrel kids," then the opposite "lovely sweet girls " or "I'll get that bloody rp after you c g. I will get that g w on to you you bastard" "those bloody bastard neighbors, that harlot walking in my house want to pick a fight with me hey sir! well don't you start and I won't have any backchat out of anyone" give that to me you don't know what you 're doing you bloody idiot you will kill yourself with that" and take a pair of blunt sicssors off you working on craft etc, you could not win. it would go on and on and on and on for hours. these rants and ravings and you had to sit there and not cough fart, faint or hicup or move. this went on afternoons with her brother their arguing over alchol and the car or work then at night it was over my grandfather and the neighbor my grandmother thought he was having an affair with and they were flat out either one them managing a fuck between them! let alone a serious fuck to save the day. seriously it used to drive us mental. now I have my mum and dad to replace them doing the same thing and my older sister rose is a hundred if not a million times worse, and she will bash men, hit them over the head with brooms and attack me, her friends rarely see her bitchy side she saves that for me later after she has tolerated hours of their shit then she will take it out on me, bash me, abuse and bully me and dad she had a scr eaming arguemnt all day last year at melborne cup over nothing. driving my father mental doing these weird niggra black talk calling herself allans miarah cary and other fucking rubbish wanting to go off to filipena whore land. I can't tolerate it so i don't talk to her anymore nor does dad.

my grandmother used to rant and rave for hours piss drunk every night and my dad does it as well. mu...

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when I get down I just focus on my projects and study and work or exercise or developing my stength back from serious illness. I just put my all into my pets as I don't have children, or husband and I still have a fashionpassion I guess !

when I get down I just focus on my projects and study and work or exercise or developing my stength ...

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Announcement: I WROTE A BOOK! Raphael Gomes ... hmmm!

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well did I get up her !

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i study, i shop, i clean, i walk, i bus it, i train it, i get excited always to be let down. just stop it and go get a life. how about i bully you !

i study, i shop, i clean, i walk, i bus it, i train it, i get excited always to be let down. just st...

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I hate sarina russo, I want that woman punished. she is a spastic retarted ugly whore. bully mental case. seriously mentally ill woman!

I hate sarina russo, I want that woman punished. she is a spastic retarted ugly whore. bully mental ...

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if I have to take on the queen I will if she thinks she is being funny abusing me or any of the royals pushing me with a spastic loser deadbeat like ken carey your gonna cop it. I have had enough of your insults and abuse since I was a little girl. one of you is behind me being abused and neglected and rejected and one of you is going to have to answer to the law and a judge about it. I won't kill you, I will make you answer candid clear questions and make you aware that no matter who you are you can't go around abusing little children getting them to do things you want them to do, going through their diary and using nlp getting them to live out things that bugsy and the others were doing to me, one of the royals has to be behind it. they have to be behind it. and they have to understand that my parents like me might respect royals for who they are but at the end of the day we don't have to tolerate your abuses or pushing a spastic loser deadbead like ken carey onto me and him raping me and other men trying to rape me as a child. your all going to pay for it. its not enough that diana is dead. i don't think she was behind it all. someone else was . hms melville should have been sunk with all those rapists losers in it. I don't have to take your abuse, or david bowies abuse or any stupid drug spoilt actor or pop stars abuse. I don't hae to tolerate royals dirty abuse spastic games that make no sense.

if I have to take on the queen I will if she thinks she is being funny abusing me or any of the roya...

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body shamed for being fat or too thin! i was body shamed for losing too much weight after being over weight for a number of years and what made me want to lose weight in the first place was my health and one day i had a fright from heart pain so i went and lost a heap of weight, i had tried only 1 diet before that which didn't work, but to be body shamed for being too thin when i felt i was not too thin and i was not anorexic or bulimic, i was a lower then a size 10 sure but i looked and felt great. from that day on i started gaining weight again and then i would have to push it down again. but clearly after a number of body shaming expereinces while being thin. i started putting on weight with medication and illness. i started gaining weight out of getting no where, i started getting rejected in jobs and colleges just because i rejected some rude abusive men as friends, so they as a group punished me for being thin and wanted me fat again. then i thought well i wanted to be fat so people wouldn't be jealous of me anymore and men thinking i was vain and self sufficient as a thin woman. i was very sad rejected but i felt great in myself thin and i think a lot of people couldn't deal with that i had been the fat girl who lost weight and was saying "i want a new life that you bozos can't give me with your ruthless clowning around and acting like boofwits rather then mature genuine "marriagable men" i was a woman who was serious and they couldn't stand me standing on my own and begging the question to be answered as to why i was push out of places and denied the normal rights others take for granted. so being both thin and fat has shown me people will body shame you no matter what you are. even when i was a perfect weight for my height i was still labelled and body shamed yet i felt healthy and great in myself. i didn't know why i was being rejected from jobs i would get nicely dressed for and take in my resume of acheivements and be positive, i didn't know why i was never getting dates or flirts from men. i just stopped caring anyway but i would love to kick the assesholes of those people who did body shame me and make them feel low and underpriveledged as they ought to be as punishment for abusing me!

body shamed for being fat or too thin! i was body shamed for losing too much weight after being over...

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i was accused of being a gym and exercise junkie and this bitch and her mother from a law firm and this dickhead started pushing in on my scene of friends and pushed me out! i can't believe this asshole would have the audacity to get in on such a small scene and take over and abuse me when i was enjoying my life minding my business and i just would never talk to this girl she looked so bitchy towards me so i never spoke or looked at her ever due to her mean face and i got the feeling she was put out i was working out in the ladies only small private gym when i found my place with friends and this bitch wrecked it all. she was a fat bummed germ bitch with a slut angela whore mother, poor little rich girl don't you dare feel sorry for that angela devil slut who became a professional in my scene on my time! in my way. i wanted her out of town. waster druggy whore!

i was accused of being a gym and exercise junkie and this bitch and her mother from a law firm and t...

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I want to go to hotel or resort for halloween because my neighbors take it too far. it upset me and my father so much, I had to get dad to protect me, he went out and told the actors they went too far!

I want to go to hotel or resort for halloween because my neighbors take it too far. it upset me and ...

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i am a single woman who masturbates to porn. i feel disgusted afterwards and think "thank god that is over and done with" i really want a loving husband with a mature mind and soul and who loves to put detail into what they do and wants children and is refined and well educated, i am always re-educating myself and i long for a good man and career at the end we are all just human beings that need love over job titles and income brackets and bank accounts and name titles etc. i just wish i knew what is about me that pushes the men i like away, i am considering doing a complete expo-say and interviewing radom men business and all areas and getting them to critique me and i think i am tough enough to take the truth if its negative or positive. i just want some feedback. i don't get flirts and that is a form of feedback for women to access their attraction and skills, i never got feedback in jobs, just dead silence. it so silent its erry and creepy society stuff. has the whole world gone halloween but me?

i am a single woman who masturbates to porn. i feel disgusted afterwards and think "thank god that i...

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