Confessions about 'General'

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dr m keeps blaming me for killing his kid brother but he did all that himself. so stop blaming me because your crazy and have a fake name and screw too many young nurses. I made a point of gettting away from your world and far enough can't be far enough if you get me, I have my problems and I don't need your rubbish and problems as well. rather watch you fall down in the problems you created for yourself and I go away to max and torquil and hamryn and dear dear mekhi just to get away and I dont love any of these en but I could they just help me pass the time because I forgave myself a long time ago for being such a fool for believing in love and honesty. you taught me that. thanks. at least I walk free and nothing hurts me.

dr m keeps blaming me for killing his kid brother but he did all that himself. so stop blaming me be...

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I didn't kill your kid brother you did. sorry but you should know.

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I had a suicidal relapse and making mistakes all the time and spilling things everywhere at home wrecking all my hard work because everything I have ever done was invain. I don't love you and I blame you.

I had a suicidal relapse and making mistakes all the time and spilling things everywhere at home wre...

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I hate to be mean, but there's a girl at school that calls me her best friend. I used to think she was one of my best friends, but as I got older I have become less tolerant of her. I've bitched about this to my family so many times. She doesn't get when I don't want to talk to her, she clings to me constantly and I can't stand her. When I don't tell her my secrets, she gets offended. She's a loud mouth and I can't trust her with my secrets. When I'm angry and I don't want to talk to anyone and just ignore everyone, she tries hugging me and kissing my cheek. I'm not a lesbian, but she might be. (Nothing against lesbians) She also lies so much to me. After a weekend she tells me that she "met someone" and they are going out. I tell her to take pictures but I never see any pictures! Then when one of my other friends and I talk about our boyfriends, she nearly starts crying because she doesn't have a boyfriend. Sometimes she acts like she's so hot and that so many guys want her.

I hate to be mean, but there's a girl at school that calls me her best friend. I used to think she w...

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Life is boring, and uneven, highs and lows that are do extreme it makes me question why I'm even here. Family suckered, love ducks and work is just there, I'm a fraud who fakes life everyday. One day I will be caught and that's the day I fear the most, that I can no longer put up this joke of my life

Life is boring, and uneven, highs and lows that are do extreme it makes me question why I'm even her...

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8 years ago we met... In those 8 years we've had a couple of good times. We still are not married, we went seperate ways after so many visits out touring and we share no commonality, we live two separate lives... I grow more and more animosity the longer I feel lost when he was not here. I just wanted out. And every time I try and you'd hold the rifts over my head. all this work was never good enough for my business partner. Truth is I typed up notes with another man this weekend in front of you and liked it. I can't even feel bad about it. I just want out! and we you and me never made much so the contracts over.

8 years ago we met... In those 8 years we've had a couple of good times. We still are not married, w...

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My parents are extreme social phobic. They're conservative, sexist, of having my things thrown around and taken away, of being beat, of having hateful things said to me for the rest of my life. But I have to come out. I have to know what they will do. I have to know if they will still love me. It's killing me, all the lying. I fought my own class phobia for so long, hated myself, hated that part of me, that I won't let anyone else treat me like that. I'm going to come out this summer.

My parents are extreme social phobic. They're conservative, sexist, of having my things thrown aroun...

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I'm afraid of my father. It's only been six or seven instances. When he pulled my hair. When he pushed my down the stairs and I caught myself. When he threw a box of electronic parts at me. When he was angry before dinner and threw his food on the floor and it flew in the air. When he threatened to break down the door and wouldn't stop pounding on it. (Actually this has happened multiple times.) When he yelled at me from downstairs while he was eating, and came upstairs to yell at me. He was holding a knife. He is really easy to irritate. Any little thing, any misunderstanding, can set him off. The thing is, the rest of the time he's pretty normal. Sometimes a quiet guy. But these bursts of anger-not only shown at me, but my siblings, and my mother (which used to be really bad), frighten me as who he is as a person. Will he one day wrap his fingers around my neck? Will he hit me? (As he apparently has to my mother?) What is he capable of? His yelling terrifies me.

I'm afraid of my father. It's only been six or seven instances. When he pulled my hair. When he push...

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my confession is this My elder sister wants to get married to this guy she loves. He is absolutely lovely. He is nice, hardworking, intelligent, sweet, mature, understanding, very dedicated to her and loves her very much. Everybody in our family likes (maybe almost loves) him. Except for my father... The real reason why he is against it is probably because he believes my sister will stop helping us economically when she gets married. Which she won't. But even if she did, nobody would blame her. She has always worked hard, achieved things on her own and helped us. It's her right to be happy and build her life. She is not old, but she is not young neither (she is 25). Father pretends to have other worries (very irrelevant) and makes up excuses why he is against. He says he wants her to finish her phd (which would take another 4 years for her). He says he needs to discuss it with our uncles and aunts, his uncles and aunts, our cousins, his cousins - basically the whole town! The only reason why I haven't told him to fuck off and let my sister be happy is that I have a loving (angel) mother, a younger sister and two younger brothers and they still need him economically. And as for me, I'm quite useless for the moment and I hate myself about that. Sometimes I imagine I kill him. It's not the first time he ruins our happiness. He has done my mother's life so miserable. He has done her so miserable. He made us miserable too. He's been like a dark shadow all these years and ruins everything. He doesn't love us one bit. He only thinks of himself. Men like him should be castrated! Maybe one day I will really kill him. And nobody will understand why.

my confession is this My elder sister wants to get married to this guy she loves. He is absolutely...

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I was in love with max for all of 3 days

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I used to like max now I don't

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I was my own bully, I am my own bully, sometimes a old mans bullying voice is in my head speaking to me mean all the time picking away at me. I wish it would go away

I was my own bully, I am my own bully, sometimes a old mans bullying voice is in my head speaking to...

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failure in any of my journey maybe in myself, i would like to be a better role model. specially in reality. buttt i dont beat myself up for it....really cuting me a break is priority in my reality. i deserve to have fun and enjoy what is without all the hub bub and drama. aint going to happen sighhhhh

failure in any of my journey maybe in myself, i would like to be a better role model. specially in r...

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It is okay because I'm ________ It is okay because I won't remember It's okay because of the vodka But when you touch me as I sleep Remember the way I apologized for throwing up in your trash can Remember the way my hands were tiny and limp And try to pretend you don't know when I awake and I'm not sure why my pants are unbuttoned Try not to look me in the eyes when you pass by me You won't know the way I realized in the shower And scrubbed so hard my skin was raw You won't know the way I flinch when a larger hand touches me And I'll never know for sure what you gained While I slept I'm someone's baby, grown and drunk and happy I had one too many and I needed to lay down The world went black and you saw me there Unaware, unable to speak up You could have some fun and nobody would ever know But with a tug I blinked my stained eyes And I felt your hand And I couldn't move I was an object I know longer had a favorite color or a quirky giggle I was breasts and thighs Dead weight and shallow breathes And nothing more You should have tucked me in But we both know that You don't have to tell me what you did to me I don't think I want to know anyway Just promise me you'll think about it Just promise me I'll be the reason it doesn't happen to another girl Just promise me you looked in the mirror I'll never understand when desire becomes more important than humanity

It is okay because I'm ________ It is okay because I won't remember It's okay because of the vodka B...

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I am great at pretending everything is fine. I can easily go week by week and pretend that everything in the world is going okay and I am okay. But every single day I think about wanting to die. And I scroll through posts endlessly about people who also want to die. And I am not okay. Not even a little bit. Sometimes I think that if I were to tell someone that they wouldn't even believe me. But this feeling is overwhelming me. My Secret.

I am great at pretending everything is fine. I can easily go week by week and pretend that everythin...

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I am great at pretending everything is fine. I can easily go week by week and pretend that everything in the world is going okay and I am okay. But every single day I think about wanting to die. And I scroll through posts endlessly about people who also want to die. And I am not okay. Not even a little bit. Sometimes I think that if I were to tell someone that they wouldn't even believe me. But this feeling is overwhelming me. My Secret.

I am great at pretending everything is fine. I can easily go week by week and pretend that everythin...

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ny guys make me sick.

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I feel so lonely. My heart aches and I am dying on the inside. No one knows how bad it is bc I smile and push past my tears. My bucket is almost empty and I don't know how much more I can take of this feeling. I want to die. I think about it. I fantasize about it. I don't think I can make it. I don't think that there is a light at the end of this dark and dreary tunnel. Maybe this time I will get it right. I talk to my self all the time because I am the only who will listen to me or be my friend, I have made up invisible friends as well like I did when I was 5. I did that to deal with so many deaths round me the time. sometimes I shut reality out completely.

I feel so lonely. My heart aches and I am dying on the inside. No one knows how bad it is bc I smile...

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I feel so lonely. My heart aches and I am dying on the inside. No one knows how bad it is bc I smile and push past my tears. My bucket is almost empty and I don't know how much more I can take of this feeling. I want to die. I think about it. I fantasize about it. I don't think I can make it. I don't think that there is a light at the end of this dark and dreary tunnel. Maybe this time I will get it right. I talk to my self all the time because I am the only who will listen to me or be my friend, I have made up invisible friends as well like I did when I was 5. I did that to deal with so many deaths round me the time. sometimes I shut reality out completely.

I feel so lonely. My heart aches and I am dying on the inside. No one knows how bad it is bc I smile...

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I'm sure I have OCD. I have all the symptoms, but I'm too afraid to tell anyone. I'm not yet comfortable talkingto someone or addmiting it, and my mum called me a weirdo and hit me when she saw me scratching myself. I don't do that all the time, I just do it sometimes if I get really stressed. When she found out that the doctor had recommended I see a therapist after I apparently had all the symptoms of hypochondriaisis, she said I was too young and it started off the OCD and has being getting worse ever since.

I'm sure I have OCD. I have all the symptoms, but I'm too afraid to tell anyone. I'm not yet comfort...

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