Confessions about 'Pride'

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I did some more pharmacy tech maths today, I do actually understand some of it for the dumb loser I am.

I did some more pharmacy tech maths today, I do actually understand some of it for the dumb loser I ...

Pride

you want my honest opinion about poofters and gay scum marrying legally, its a joke, they are not equal. they are taking away and infringing on my rights and poofterism is not normal. I hate the sight of all that non-sense. I will never support gay marriage the older I am getting the more harsh I am getting because people have been to me. if the gays supported my cause more so that I can get married to a hot rich man who I can like and have children and job and equality as a single disability women then I might support the dirty poofters and lesodogs, but the way I see it what Shorten says is stupid, it might be the century it is - and there are more important issues then a bunch of poofters marry and having babies. like its also 2017 and people are still dying of serious illnesses and other peoples rights are being infringed every day. they can't express themselves or have love - those who are on welfare or disability, isolated and ignored by society for NOT BEING GAY, who long to be married and have children like me, we just long to be normal. so if my rights are neglected why should some poofter be able to marry and wear my wedding dress when I have not been allowed to, its almost as if there is some reverse minimalistic mumbo-jumbo going on - the weirder you are they seem to think they have more rights, the dirty vulgar manner that gay people talks is sickening. and I now regret deeply in 1997 saying that having kids or being a good person was not about sexuality because for some stupid reason people took that to mean I wanted the pendulum to swing right around so no hetro singles were marrying and having babies and that is not what I meant at all. I have since made the decision that gay people should be allowed to have kids, it will mess up the children. I have rights and I am more important than a bunch of dirty poofters. so if they don't support my issues like being a victim of child sexual abuse and wanting a husband and child and my special wedding day I will not support the dirty poofters and lesodogs, I have female people I admire that does not mean I want to fuck them, I want a men for that and a decent one ! not the scum I had before. not helping others til others help me! not forgiving others til others forgive me!

you want my honest opinion about poofters and gay scum marrying legally, its a joke, they are not eq...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

no body wants you around ken, you already have been told to go drop dead on top of a bomb. so can leigh morris drop dead I hope she id dead, she looked dead to me even when I knew her like joyce. joyce was the walking dead- that spastic holehead was the walking dead of them all and ugly and a dirty leso mental abuser slang! it was dead alright!

no body wants you around ken, you already have been told to go drop dead on top of a bomb. so can le...

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do you always get what you want do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hy3Ba46wEc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gckBQ1PWjrs&t=64s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyJGwBJg41I https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pdl32t4vgU "itty bitty problems or fat ass problems?" morally I couldn't do this without complete security and esurenace of cia and fbi safety and I certain don't want some user whatever they are ... I mean really go away! because I need a real man who wants to love me my way. not their way.

do you always get what you want do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hy3Ba46wEc https://www.y...

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I am thinking about being lesbian even though it disgusts me, because I can't trust anyone. its not me to be gay but I don't have 1 man I can trust. I wish I did. my pride has been hurt too much and all the death threats and games I don't understand.

I am thinking about being lesbian even though it disgusts me, because I can't trust anyone. its not ...

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I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is getting married and I am a older women, what the hell should I do? I love her she is so pretty and I can't see me ever marrying or finding love or having children, so I wish I could get with this girl which it sounds crazy she is about 20 years younger then me but I just woke up and realised nothing is ever again going to work right for me and there is no point trying to make it work. I love her. and its a difficult situation to be in but life is not going to go how I want it to. my pride is too wounded and I even am considering not going on the internet ever again for anything. its a useless thing that helps no one get jobs or relationships or friends. who is the internet really helping ? no one.

I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is ...

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this indian bitch doctor never gave me an explaination for her bullshit games the whore bitch witch. I hate her today as much as then because she had no good professional practices at all and my therapist told me to get rid of her if she was going to harm me and not help the specialists and support their advice. the woman is a nutcase. evil vile witch I have no time for and I felt like she was using me and wronging me the whole time, no quality doctor giggles and laughs and makes fun of the specialist and she was always making me feel like I could not trust them, the same with wellpt they were doing similar abuses as well. lying on patient charts and getting things wrong mixed up with other patients deliberately and saying and doing stupid things and I knew that was don and mary abusing me. I knew they were behind the whole fraud game they had going with valentino. evil vile people. untrustworthy scum of the earth.

this indian bitch doctor never gave me an explaination for her bullshit games the whore bitch witch....

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I was sick this morning with gastro and I made the mistake of going out for a few hours to sit under a tree near the water and I got burn under the tree. I just couldn't take it at home and had to get out of the house for while and see life outside. and I didn't want to eat much i just had a milk and cheese drink and my usual heaps of water but I forogot to put sunscream on, I wish I was not so forgetful. really its embarrsing, and I can't believe I am this burnt just walking 10 mins to the bus and sitting under a tree anyway, i am so sore now its shitty, I have put aloe vera on but I am still burning inside. I have just had this heat and this awful brisbane climate I can't take it anymore I have hated it for the last 25 years I hate the place so much. I hate burning you can't enjoy the outdoors its so hot and I am sick of it.

I was sick this morning with gastro and I made the mistake of going out for a few hours to sit under...

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when your a loser ugly dog like me you always get abused, but it gonna stop soon because I will not be your fucking jesus dying and suffering on the cross for any cnt mf or any person at all at any dirty churches or fck upty snots and low lives. so stop abusing me you dirty mf scums. your trouble and dangerous spoilt selfish assholes alright and I am not the criminal don makes out I am. I bet he is but.

when your a loser ugly dog like me you always get abused, but it gonna stop soon because I will not ...

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I just went out for a few hours at lunch and sitting under a tree and wait at the bus stop and I got really sunburnt I don't know how I was careful but careful enough. I hate getting burnt, oh I am always doing something wrong when I don't mean to. the world hates me because I am a dog ugly fat old loser - what can I say?

I just went out for a few hours at lunch and sitting under a tree and wait at the bus stop and I got...

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one physiotherapist I went to when I was really ill did really hard massage on my left shoulder and he said to me "you have an incredible tolerance to pain" and I thought "yeh well don't push it mate!" because he seemed to go all the harded and then said to me "you will feel like you are having a heart attack but your not" sure enough a few days later I was packing off to another doctor beside myself in over my mastoid eventhough all the mri's and ct scans were showing what they said was "nothing" yet the ambulance officer said "there is a good reason why you have been sent to the neurologist/brain surgeon" the heart pain was out of this world serveral times in a few months I thought I was going to die I could tell when my heart was slowing down and I would be pacing around all hours of the night trying to breath and I was seeing another physiotherapist as well for pnemonia treatment and I just wondered why people were doing all this to me? ever since I was a kid people were putting this shit down on me, then all this deliberate isolation like I was some leppa or freakin criminal on parole going to russos answering the big bear gruff which was just insanity. all these doctors and tests all saying "no nothing is wrong, yes you have a ear infection but you won't die" and I was like well why the hell is this driving me insane the infection took forever to go down and once the ent did the surgery on my ear drum I had all this blood on the roof of my mouth for weeks and I couldn't brush my teeth so I was using salt a lot and I couldn't wash my hair because everytime I did it felt like my brain water was swelling and you just get sick of doctors saying shit at you that its like they are taking a bit off you rather then being sincer and polite, and there were a few really good doctors as well. one indian young doctor at the hospital was amazingly thorough, I get really annoyed sometimes because a lot of doctors today forget very basic procedures like BP and pulse and looking into throat and eyes and chest - they are often as lazy as the cops and will take the laziest way out of a case which years ago doctors would never do. I was insulted a number of times and I was warned to shut up and let the situation go and ignore all the bullying and if I said anything it was like I was going to get it I got the warning via other people however, they use other people to talk through them. that is what I don't like its really snide too. and I was not going to back down. I told one indian female doctor to go shove it because I was polite to her and she would giggle and shake her head and say the specialists didn't prescript the right thing or it wouldn't work what they prescribed and I said "I have to trust my gp i have to rely on you to work with my specialists and tell me things if they don't, if you think its an issue say so say why? don't just giggle and she was like "I don't need to read all that from the specialist I am a doctor" and I said yes but I am not! I need you to follow with the speciaist and not have me as lettuce leaf between the sandwich. why are you working against the specialists every time? why do you keep saying they are wrong?" that only puts more doubt and upset on me then making me question them more and more. I don't need anymore doubt I already have plenty, and I don't want anyone ruining my professional relationships with any more of my doctors becausse its annoying having to change doctors I need to settle somewhere and trust what they say. I try my best to ignore as much as I can, but I don't need the unwanted comments that are insulting because believe me, I can be insulting and slash back unexpectly at people too! I have my ways and means of finding peoples secrets out. I will undo people who mess with me, I hate my neighbors for attacking D, he can answer for himsself if he wronged me.

one physiotherapist I went to when I was really ill did really hard massage on my left shoulder and ...

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and I am not forgiving, we are a family that don't forgive my older sister says all the time! and I won't forgive anyone! my parents said I don't have to forgive anyone who has abused me from churches or anywhere.

and I am not forgiving, we are a family that don't forgive my older sister says all the time! and I ...

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I want full protection by police and my doctors from joyce and ken and other types who have harmed me. I don't want these vile dirty disgusting abusive scum in my world anymore. I never asked for there rubbish and I don't want it in my world anymore. I never wanted them in my world ever.

I want full protection by police and my doctors from joyce and ken and other types who have harmed m...

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joyce is a born troublemaker and she will die one! the mental case can't help herself, my doctor said he is glad I reported her and I am going to keep reporting her for the wrong she did to me - that mongrel vile satanic sicko women, no normal counsellor has sex with her clients and the dirty things she was doing and saying to me where sicko evil talk. she should be put in a jail for what she did to me. dirty vile disgusting woman I never ever should have met. dirty dutch animals. like the dirty german animals. vile disgusting dirty talk evil woman of the worst kind aiding and abetting pedophiles to abuse me. vile dirty criminal woman I never want to see ever again. she has no right to be counselling anyone my therapist said, no right at all.

joyce is a born troublemaker and she will die one! the mental case can't help herself, my doctor sai...

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this old woman from logan called talking over the top of me extracting information from me I am going to report and find out who she is all she said was we gave you some 1300 number and I have no idea who the woman was or why she rang she didn't talked so quick and over the top of me, I will be telling my doctors about her because she annoyed me getting information and she could be any bitch trying cause trouble I don't trust people so many people have tried to poison my professional relationships with my doctors and I can't trust joyce that she would still try to medal in anything to cause me harm and she never helped me take the death threats parcel to th police as a normal caring therapist would and my neighbors next door who were attacking a man have been trying to make me look crazy but I know what I heard and saw and they were abusing me and attacking D and I they were making me ill having to listen to it night after night they were attacking a man. I can't trust my nieghbors at all and I want to move from this area there is nothing good for me in this dirty old little town of the redlands, its a dirty dirty morbid abusive town of mongrels who have done me wrong.

this old woman from logan called talking over the top of me extracting information from me I am goi...

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I am sick of joyce crushing my heart making me feel like I don't deserve to wear a pretty wedding dress, all women want a beautiful wedding and feel special on a wedding day and I don't care if I am accused of waitaround for some knight in shining armor or prince from god only knows where. I really thought I would meet my guy at college or law school or I would get a job and meet someone, maybe I should have gone knocking on every brothel or single male door in town but its probably not me to do that anyway, I seen a lot of young "businessy" hot guys ,but they didn't see me I just hate women who are so evil who ruin love for other women and can't bare to see someone being loved and enjoying a marriage. I have always been glad for others but if people don't want to see me find love then why should I for them? that is why I just put my foot down with family weddings after my sister was married and I said "no mum we are not going to anyones wedding they don't care about me and my feelings" we went to my brothers and that was the only other one. I just refuse to go to peoples weddings. I am glad for other people I don't know more then I am for people I know and I know they would treat me better then most other people who know me. that is the crazy thing.

I am sick of joyce crushing my heart making me feel like I don't deserve to wear a pretty wedding dr...

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so this lawyer who has all these nazi 3rd Reich huge books in his cabinet was interviewing and openly masturbating himself on the other side of the desk while talking to me, that was weird, I admit I for a change took advantage of my weight loss and wore a short shift dress that was beige and crepe material and I loved the dress i couldnt believe I had the confidence to wear it or i was that thin because I was so shy and sexually un-informed or just not a flirty woman, but now and then I do dress up a bit to build up my confidence but that was a shock to me, and it was un-nerving for some really fat old guy to do that and the cops had just left because he sacked the receptionist and there had been some break in so I was like "I don't think this is the right job for me anyway", I mean I am so sexually shy it more likely to me the type to have secret crushes on men and masturbate in private its not that that really offended its the whole scene it was like some dream it strange and I was shocked a professional would openly do that at a meeting and he was strange with all the nazi stuff I would sooner talk that crap down. and it was a dodgy area at springwood. bloody strange. to openly do that at an interview its my god, man, at least you could wait til I leave, and he was acting like it was just normal ???? to do that in public ? it was no compliment anyway. he was old and married and strange. I don't think I could work in that.

so this lawyer who has all these nazi 3rd Reich huge books in his cabinet was interviewing and openl...

Pride, Abuse, Sex

why is it everyone else is allowed have love and safety but me? like this happened when I was really sick I got a stupid cheap shirt that had on it something like "I love you and always will" and I wore it twice to different places as I recall rightly and after that I was abused by the staff there I find that crazy.

why is it everyone else is allowed have love and safety but me? like this happened when I was really...

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mindfulness is not the answer- finding a husband and feeling wanted in employment is the answer. being bullied is not the answer.

mindfulness is not the answer- finding a husband and feeling wanted in employment is the answer. bei...

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I have had enough of being abused by you guys alright. I have rights and my doctors are not impressed with the people who have been and are bullying me. go and find a new hobby!

I have had enough of being abused by you guys alright. I have rights and my doctors are not impresse...

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