Confessions about 'Pride'

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my relatives do not frighten me because I know all their dirty stories and lies and secrets and I can embarrase them any time. its like m peterson n don if those two where not scammers in 1977 abusing me. I have no idea why they were doing it I was only 5 or 6 but I think its evil. I am not taking the blame for anything, everyone has said to me I am not to blame for anything that happen or what that pedo got me to do as a innocent naive child, he did that to dad and ros and rose and others and I don't feel bad about it i was just a child less then 10. I don't know why I have been singled out but I don't like it and I am deeply resentful and bitter and I feel I have righteous anger over it all!

my relatives do not frighten me because I know all their dirty stories and lies and secrets and I ca...

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why should I hang around these bands who bullshitted me around and ripped me off. I lost interest in them in 2004. basically my attitude is I was expecting to be liked and complete my course and I might have got some help like others but I don't see why I was not given the chance to complete the course when I was one of the least bitching and least scoffy lot there who were making insulting references daily about teachers and admin at the college and their obvious preferences to certain students to be allowed pass and how some were allowed pre veligers and others were not. I did nothing illegal and I resent the way I was treated. no excuse for bowie and his bullshit they can all fuck off! I was good enough and pushed out on the dumb heap at 23 passed up by men and for work so you don't get over the hurt and the haters that easy. I own no one a thing!

why should I hang around these bands who bullshitted me around and ripped me off. I lost interest in...

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I am sick of being accused of being in someones way for sex with a man, or a job, at home to use the toilet or kitchen, in the shop I seem to be in peoples way, yet if they are in my way do I complain? I wish people would get out of my way! I have hate and anger built up me for the last 38 years so get out of my way! I count too!

I am sick of being accused of being in someones way for sex with a man, or a job, at home to use the...

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would someone get this leech pissass porter joyce off my head please!!!! and stop her torturing and abusing my family and me. go get your jollies somewhere else whore! and that goes for the dog rotters called the petersons who ripped off my family - she had a plan against me in 1977 that woman and don. I was only 5 would someone get these leeches off me please!

would someone get this leech pissass porter joyce off my head please!!!! and stop her torturing and ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I need more money and social life. I need someone to clean up my life, sort my things and make sense of my life.

I need more money and social life. I need someone to clean up my life, sort my things and make sense...

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I felt raped of who I am as a person since a child, of godparents who were useless and lazy, of knowing things, being refered to as the milkmans kid etc as if my mother was a whore, I feel robbed of my education and career, as if people seen me as ron and I am nothing like him so why was I given this stupid ear problem? it has to be satanic abuse asian or something! all my left side has had spine alignment issues and my right side of the vagina has all these issues ear problems mostly on the left. right leg from car accident causing me pain. and this fucking bitch who abused me who I was way too nice to was offended, well stuff her! as if she was this innocent birdy and i was never against her. i wish someone had of listened and helped. look at all I have suffered because no one would help me as a child of 5. so I can make the world to blame.

I felt raped of who I am as a person since a child, of godparents who were useless and lazy, of know...

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last year I spend dieting, nearly 1 hr a day on a vibration platform machine, hiit jumping on a rebounder over 500jumps per day, then 10mins on airwalker, 120on rower and 20mins on machine, resistance cords on arms and legs x 150 plus, 200 on twister, 5mins on stepper, weights and step for 5mins, gymball and pilates for 10mins and I didn't loose any weight at all I gained it. I only eat 1 slice of bread at lunch most times, I limit myself to only lean small meats, and only treats 1 day a week like ice-cream or a small cake slice, I eat salads and oats and I drank so much water it was brimming out of me yet my veins would still collapse in blood tests. what the hell is going on ? I am sick of this fat.

last year I spend dieting, nearly 1 hr a day on a vibration platform machine, hiit jumping on a rebo...

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things I have done alone- i made a list, go to the movies alone, go dancing alone, go out to a night club alone, travel at night alone, catch buses alone to places I have never been and get lost alone- that was a big one- I got lost walking from the train station to a job interview they it sound like "oh you just walk here and turn here and go through a side walk near a park" well I still got lost and rang my mum and still got lost and cried I felt so awful. went to the hospital alone in the middle of the night, got ambulance alone, taxis alone, walked in the dark alone, walked in isolated places alone to get to my friends place, or met friends alone. did exams in strange places alone. I am sick of being the fuck alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

things I have done alone- i made a list, go to the movies alone, go dancing alone, go out to a nigh...

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I can't take this fat anymore someone save me from my self-sabotaging!

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look whose talking now! olas!

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i have an autoimmune disorder.

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i exercise nearly everyday on weights and plantform and resistance cords and still no sign of weight loss. so sick of this.

i exercise nearly everyday on weights and plantform and resistance cords and still no sign of weight...

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I really need more money. I have to buy some bridal things for my portfolio and I doubt I will ever earn money doing make up or anything I have learnt. could I even teach a thing I have learnt? I somehow doubt it! no confidence!!!

I really need more money. I have to buy some bridal things for my portfolio and I doubt I will ever ...

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hate just hate kate not cuz I am jealous I just don't trust her and she is shifty and brash. she has proven to be untrustworthy yet most of the time I have prove to be reliable, and I think she is just a user, well they are both users. i don't love william and I just think they are not nice people. I have found them to be very very abusive and deceitful and untrustworthy abusive people.

hate just hate kate not cuz I am jealous I just don't trust her and she is shifty and brash. she has...

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"university degrees and post graduate degrees are over rated" was all a therapist would say to me when I was at university to the point it mentally has effected me.

"university degrees and post graduate degrees are over rated" was all a therapist would say to me wh...

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I feel so tired and want to do something fun for a change.

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these network and IT courses drag on. I mean I can't see what is so cool about learning this rubbish.

these network and IT courses drag on. I mean I can't see what is so cool about learning this rubbish...

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i find churches to be depressing morbid places, they promote violence, people dying and human sacrifice and all they talk about is death and suffering and they abuses each other one way or another with tones or silence and they wronged me. I know that much. the bastards wronged me. I won't wear a crucifix to me it just invites harm on yourself.

i find churches to be depressing morbid places, they promote violence, people dying and human sacrif...

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sometimes I like to wear loser clothing to hide weight loss.

Pride, Hate

so all of last year I was doing about 1 a day exercise with a rower machine, abdo flexor, core and resistance, weights and step and rebounder and was not losing weight at all even with all that exercise and reduction of food. now I have gained more and I feel like I am fighting a uphill battle I can't beat. I diet, I exercise and no results at all. I am wondering about other exercise and dieting options or just not eating at all.

so all of last year I was doing about 1 a day exercise with a rower machine, abdo flexor, core and r...

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