Confessions about 'Pride'

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rick said you have to be working and not living at home with family to be in a relationship otherwise you were not of sound mind or maturity or with it. so if you don't have a job you gay too!

rick said you have to be working and not living at home with family to be in a relationship otherwis...

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i refuse to forgive a lot of people and my parents support me on this. its a myth that you have to forgive others for yourself to move on. its a lie we are told to pass on bullshit. my parents just said to me "you don't have to forgive one person who abused you and why should you be the one in deficit while they are all glorious, i didn't bring you into the world to left cheated". then everything just suddenly felt better when they said that to me.

i refuse to forgive a lot of people and my parents support me on this. its a myth that you have to f...

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my therapist told me to stay away from anna-maria, des and those crazy idiots and their crazy chruches.

my therapist told me to stay away from anna-maria, des and those crazy idiots and their crazy chruch...

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2 days does that mean today and tomorrow or just by friday ? so confusing.

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my right foot often goes numb around the pinky toe and top of foot when we go out and when I sit on the train my tailbone can be so painful when I stand up. its been worse this year but a few years ago it was shocking. I got regular cramps in the legs cuz of infection and my legs and lungs were so weak. I had to have physio on my lungs a few times to cough it out and it was hell. then when I had the tetanus needle i got well, what felt like how i think wet brain would feel. its terrifying the sinuses in the brain were crazy. I don't ever want to go through it ever again. its a nightmere all from infection, so I take olive leaf oil and garlic horseradish and c capsules and make my mum take them, i take a few different tonics.

my right foot often goes numb around the pinky toe and top of foot when we go out and when I sit on ...

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it hurts and its confusing when people tell you "your not allowed to like this prince or that pop star or actor or that sports person or that businessmen or that doctor etc" its confusing why are some girls allowed to put posters up of their favourite star or teacher or and yet I am not, as if I am some lesbian and I not allowed to show want for romance or love, because asian lisa said "being love and marrying turns you away from your relationship with god"???? confusing? because some people feel more the presence of god by being in a marriage or inlove, and certainly having a baby, like to me a baby is like a gift from god, like my pets, I mean if I did have an abortion or miscarriage after I was raped with all the medications I was on and the over heavy period I had, to be honest I am glad because it would not have felt like it was from god, or through love. I am sick of people telling who I am allowed to like and who I am not allowed to like. don't look at him, don't ask for help, stop looking to be rescued to the point when i was bashed going to university i felt too lame and shamed, too coward and like i was weak if i had told the police officer that was sitting near me in the train that day that I had just been assaulted, I didn't want to tell because I was embarrased I would burst into tears about being bashed or that I would be looking to be rescued asking for help, It was a waste of time going to joyce about the pedo she never took it seriously right from day 1. just would not let me talk about it at all. that was confusing.

it hurts and its confusing when people tell you "your not allowed to like this prince or that pop st...

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i think when you have been abused by certain cultures it makes it hard cus you tend to judge all of them then, but I didn't like asian lisas bullying at me, saying "stop asking god for a husband etc babies are painful marriage is hard" its so negative like what she was really saying is "I don't think you deserve those things" and who is she? a number of people said she had no right doing that to me.

i think when you have been abused by certain cultures it makes it hard cus you tend to judge all of ...

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i think joyce won't be happy til she has me pathetic abusive mess like her as some wacko councellor, and she probably is thinking with that witchy cackle "I want that girl saying "I seen the light and got out of QLD" because she said it to me about Victoria. but my life is not about her its about me not about what joyce wants its about what I want for me..., that is what my doctors keep telling me.

i think joyce won't be happy til she has me pathetic abusive mess like her as some wacko councellor,...

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i think joyce won't be happy til she has me pathetic abusive mess like her as some wacko councellor, and she probably is thinking with that witchy cackle "I want that girl saying "I seen the light and got out of QLD" because she said it to me about Victoria. but my life is not about her its about me not about what joyce wants its about what I want for me..., that is what my doctors keep telling me.

i think joyce won't be happy til she has me pathetic abusive mess like her as some wacko councellor,...

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i think joyce won't be happy til she has me pathetic abusive mess like her as some wacko councellor, and she probably is thinking with that witchy cackle "I want that girl saying "I seen the light and got out of QLD" because she said it to me about Victoria. but my life is not about her its about me not about what joyce wants its about what I want for me..., that is what my doctors keep telling me.

i think joyce won't be happy til she has me pathetic abusive mess like her as some wacko councellor,...

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I am a person who will make out everything is fine and what angers me is people who do threatening things and verbal threats at me and stalking and gangs, then its like how could all these colleges get together to be abusive ? but I told police and govt about them all ages ago. I just don't want any abuse from neighbors this year at halloween. I can't live in fear all the time about people on the roof, kids wanting nude photos of me (I am fat old and boring! anyway and I just don't do nude photos and that is it!). I think my neighbours see me and us as a family as easy targets and they think its funny to upset us or hurt us emotionally not thinking about how much it effects my health mentally or physically. I can't take one more heart break. not even with things like my cat being sick. I just have to pray he will be ok over night til I get to the vet tomorrow. does my pride show when I cover up things face to face?

I am a person who will make out everything is fine and what angers me is people who do threatening t...

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sometimes I want to tell the police a lot more that at the time I can't thing of. I don't know if it would help to talk to a woman police officer about certain issues cuz some of them are not as caring as the males. I am trying not to get too upset about things with halloween or stalking and this hacker. I just really want a normal love life and don't understand why things a messed up. I am glad I do have a few police officers that do care enough about me. I just don't break down and cry in front of them about everything that terrorifies me and I didn't even when I reported the date rape. its just like "well its all matter of a fact" but when I am alone I am upset. its like when I was sick the ambulance got a lady to come around and calm me who was a nurse and the dept manager contacted the hospital and my gp find out what they could do for me if 3 letters couldn't admit me but right now my sodium and potasium levels are ok its more heart palpitations with these other generic tablets. but I don't want any terrorist threats at me I mean I could talk myself blue in the face to the police about the fear of bunnyp and churches with witches or things upsetting me. but I have no conclusive proof, with cyber crime and forensic hacking you would think they could investigate who is stalking me on pages?

sometimes I want to tell the police a lot more that at the time I can't thing of. I don't know if it...

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I am so relieved today, my bowls have been like bad lately on and off cuz of this detox thing I am on. and I watch a lot of dr eric berg and barbara o'neil at a health retreat cuz I want to go through a complete detox process for weight issues and my heart and my has thyroid issues and diabetites and blood preasure and cholestrol issues and takes medications and I have to be aware of it. I went off the hormone replacement therapy because I could not hack it, it did help ease period pain and I think might have lost a bit of weight on it but l was sick every other day with it. the only benefit I can see with it is sure the period pain for the first 24-48 hours was not as intense. but your near vomitting every day anyway. I have server back pain anyway and learnt to live with pain, but the heart palpitations are the worst feeling or feeling struggle to breathe. etc. since I had this vaginal byopsy I feel even more afraid to even consider sex. for the last 4 years I just can't even handle insertion feeling don't use tampons ever and there is a lot of issues for me, my spine and this occasional gritty feeling and chunch sound in my neck is unpleasant and worries me a lot. I go through fear of cancers since 2 ladies I knew had back cancer and died I was upset when they died and cried a lot and then I had always been scared of issuues of bone cancer since the car accident when i was 19 and all these middle ear infections and heart issues on and off. people wonder why you become so paranoid, fear, anxeity and panic disorder is a very debilitating thing. some days are a struggle to believe I will be ok in 5 or 10 years and I want to live a long life and I have always been health conscious and only ever drank small or occasional night out binge alcohol for a short while anyway. its not something my body could cope with even when I was young so I just didn't do it a lot. but yeh I have been told I am a hypochondriac and technically that is true...a person who is abnormally anxious about their health but with good reason to be that way after what I went through.

I am so relieved today, my bowls have been like bad lately on and off cuz of this detox thing I am o...

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farting at you!

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I am sick of people wrecking all my good things, good feelings, good health I used to have, good clothes and belongings. I am not tolerating it anymore.

I am sick of people wrecking all my good things, good feelings, good health I used to have, good clo...

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adel from iran and that intern mental health doctor from ireland just made no sense to me on makefriends.com.

adel from iran and that intern mental health doctor from ireland just made no sense to me on makefr...

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my life would have been perfect if I had of had a wonderful man to love and come home to. that is all that is missing apart from health and money and a baby.

my life would have been perfect if I had of had a wonderful man to love and come home to. that is al...

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when will I be loved?

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I am literally just putting in time til I die here. there is nothing fun, nothing to look forward to, I will never marry or find work or have kids or own a house. the only people getting married are the rich and black and asian and arab and indian parki types. white people are not marrying anymore and the churches have isolated white people too much. they don't have the jobs or lifestyles their parents had .

I am literally just putting in time til I die here. there is nothing fun, nothing to look forward to...

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That this world is fucked

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